THIS IS MY REALITY

expressing anger in words

2011-05-29T17:58:00.005+08:00

Hello blogger babes and dudes.

I know it has been a while since the last time i posted anything in here. I've been busy doing....err well doing nothing. But who cares, right ?

Maaf, post ini hanya sekadar luahan hati and also a way i express my frustration of what had happened today. seriously right now all i feel like doing is stabbing someone on the chest and bury them half-alive. cruel, i know.

i had to wait for two fucking hours. oh am sorry for my language, please ignore it for now. it's ridiculous i tell you, the most ridiculous thing i had to go through. the only bright side at that exact moment was thank god i had my phone with me. at least i can online !

giler rasa nak menyumpah menyampah nak muntah. nasib baik ada pakcik chinese ni yang baik dengan aku. dia asyik duk cakap 'adik i think you should go inside and ask them' and so on. He was really nice, no doubt. all my respect goes to him.

and to top it off, last skali diorang cakap, adik datang esok boleh ? IM LIKE DUDE ASAL TAK CAKAP DARI TADI LAGI ? BUANG MASA LA. huhhhhh. sabar rinee. and my response was oh esok ? yea sure okay. and i smiled, almost on the verge of crying. see i was being nice, im telling you, NICE ! and you treated me like crap. i didn't even complain about it to other people. i sat there quietly. oh gosh.

sabar rinee. this is one of His way to test your patience. sabar, mashaAllah. dengar lagu ini lah. suka lagu ni sangat-sangat. the meaning of this fuhhh memang deep. khas untuk awak.

also had an x-ray scan or whatever you called it today. i thought the x-ray thingy was gonna take like at least 15 minutes, but heck nooo, it was only a second ! like seriously, so freaking fast. HELLO TECHNOLOGY !

P/S : i had an x-ray today and they found you in my heart ! ♥

Persahabatan antara kawan.

2011-05-15T21:57:00.008+08:00

Emo nya title. tsk tsk. sobs.

Peringatan : Kalau kau tak jiwang, kau jangan baca.

I knew that one day, whether i like it or not, the time will come for us to depart and i have to live my life with the absence of you in my sight. We all have chosen different routes, the route that will take us a step closer in fulfilling our dreams. We may be out of sight, we may be living miles away from each other but one thing i can promise you is that, you'll never leave my heart.

gambar ni sengaja di uploadkan sebab tengah marah kat dua orang ni
okay marah manja-manja, and diorang hanya kawan yer.

Thanks for all the memories we have created together. Soon when we're apart, at least i know that i have something i can cherish on everyday. Because we're so close to each other, because we share every details about each other, bidding farewell is the hardest thing to do.

Bila hampir tiap-tiap hari aku dengar suara kau, bila hampir tiap-tiap hari kita gossip, bila kau cakap kau rindu aku, bila hampir setiap kali kita end conversation kita pasti cakap i love you, bila kau forward balik mesej jiwang-jiwang yang aku hantar kat kau, bila kita kongsi segala masalah kita, bila kau call aku dulu cakap kau takut nak exam spm, bila kita nangis sama-sama, bila kita gelak sama-sama, bila kat sekolah kita pergi toilet berteman sampai 3-4 orang, bila cikgu boring dalam kelas aku kacau kau yang tengah khusyuk belajar, bila kita lepak kat sekolah sampat petang, bila kau makan jeruk dalam kelas then aku tolong cover dan giler banyak kenangan dengan kawan-kawan. If i were to write them all down, dang man, i probably need to stay awake for a whole year.

I love the similarities we have, because it makes us close, but the differences between us makes us even closer. Either way, we make a perfect combination. We breath the same air, live on the same land, pray to the same God, even those simple reasons make me love you even more. You guys seriously bring out the best in me. I love the friendship we have.

May Allah bless our friendship forever.

Never say goodbye, because goodbye means going away, and going away means forgetting. Dan aku tak nak kita lupa persahabatan ini, sebab bagi aku persahabatan ni terlalu berharga.

Emo nya minah ni malam-malam. K Bye.

Random Rinee

2011-05-11T16:33:00.006+08:00

For the past few days, i have been listening to this song quite a lot of times and i don't even have any ideas why i keep listening to it. Probably because it's addictive, or perhaps the lyrics are meaningful to me ? 'The scars are gonna heal, but they're never gonna go away'.

This is gonna be a little bit out of the blue but if someone has ever hurt you whether it's physically or mentally, just forgive and forget. Never revenge and regret because revenge is never a way to solve problems. Let them deal with God in the afterlife. Let Him do the punishing, not you.

Yeah i can be random at times especially when i am terribly boring. So pardon me. And to that star i saw the other night, i love the way you shine brighter than the others. You light up my days and nights, and i miss you, a lot.

I'm 18 this year and it's never too old to listen to nursery rhymes. I miss my childhood memories, they helped shape me into the person i am today. :')

Cerita semalam, 2 Mei 2011.

2011-05-03T21:14:00.006+08:00

ini sebenar cerita semalam, memang nak tulis semalam, tapi semalam letih and mood tak datang nak update blog. Ini cerita pasal kawan punya hari istimewa.

Sebelum tu, tahniah, Nur Inani Hishamuddin kerana telah genap lapan belas tahun. Aku dah tempah club khas untuk kau dan aku. HAHA. Semalam kitorang celebrate birthday awek cun ni lah, sepatutnya hari ini, tapi entah kenapa melayan kesibukan masing-masing terpaksa lah kitorang buat awal. A day earlier.

gambar with no motif whatsoever.

Sambut dekat kbmall jer. Giler punya idea main tepung dekat tangga 9. In case korang tak tahu, tangga 9 tu dekat tingkat atas sekali, yer tempat parking kereta. Pakcik guard, minta maaf yer kerana terpaksa bersihkan kotoran tepung yang kitorang guna. Bukan niatku untuk menambahkan kerja pakcik guard. Semua kena tepung, semua padan muka. Cun giler bila tengok semua rambut dah dye warna putih. Ada sorang dua kena icing biru, maaf yer. Tak sengaja. okay tipu, sengaja lahh ! haha.

gambar with no motif whatsoever dua.

Then, kitorang pun pergi ke medan selera dekat stadium sebab nak makan lebihan kek biru tu. Sorry lambat datang. Later petang tu, pergi main bowling dekat billion. Yang ni aku tak sempat nak join. Dah janji nak balik pukul 4 tepat. Sorry, johan longkang tak sempat nak join.

Tapi apapun, semalam memang hari yang paling indah dalam sejarah hidup aku. Mungkin ini last kitorang bergurau senda macam ni. Mungkin ini last kitorang berkumpul ramai-ramai. Nanti lepas ni, kitorang dah nak pergi hala tuju masing-masing. Pergi matrik, pergi universiti, form 6. Apapun choice korang, bila dah buat kawan baru tu, jangan lupa kawan lama. Emo nya minah ni.

Terima kasih untuk semalam. Serious aku sayang korang.

Awek-awek cun dan jejaka-jejaka kacak yang terlibat : Nadia, Afifah, Milin, Inani, Syahir, Shafiq, Shahrul, Syahmi. Eh baru perasan yang jejaka semua S. Serious sayang korang. dan awak.

pi es : sila terharu lah korang. sebab nak tulis blog post ni, aku sampai sanggup tak tengok Glee oh Puck kacak auww iloveyou. takper, takper, astro suka buat ulangan.

Laman Sosial, Twitter.

2011-04-27T21:00:00.007+08:00

Flashback : Hari tu minah jakun ni terasa nak buat twitter. Jay Park cakap, follow my twitter, it's the easiest way to stalk me. auww kan? Minah jakun ni pulak dah tergila-gilakan Jay tu, apa lagi, buat twitter lah. Tahniah.

Oke oke. Nak cerita pasal twitter. Hari tu kan kan, aku tengok tv series British kat Nickelodeon (jangan kutuk Nickelodeon yer babes dudes. You are never too old for cartoons). Tajuk cerita tuh House of Anubis tapi ni bukan lah cerita cartoon pun, cerita ni pasal mystery Anubis yang entah apa berkaitan dengan Egypt. Lepas tengok terus download semua episode dekat Pirate Bay yaww.

Sekali tengok, dah teraddict sebab hero-hero kacak, heroin-heroin lawa. Jealous kan? Plot pun menarik. oke oke, so back pasal twitter tuh. I actually tweeted one of the cast from the Anubis House. auwww. Ok ok so beranikan diri la ni nak tweet Ana Mulvoy-Ten yang pegang watak Amber Millington dalam cerita tuh. So kebetulan masa tu, dia tengah online. auww.

sesiapa yang tak kenal, ini Ana Mulvoy-Ten.

Gila kalut nak tweet dia. AND EVENTUALLY I DID. finger crossed, tunggu reply, kalau ada. Diorang kan artis, confirm busy, peminat berjuta enam, selalu dapat fan mail dari seluruh dunia, takkan nak reply semua kan? Sabo je lah.

Tunggu punya tunggu, '2 new tweets'. Oke tarik nafis, hembus, tarik nafas lagi. Tekan butang tuh, OMG TERKEJUT SIOT HAPPY TAK TERKATA ! Rasa macam nak lompat lompat jer. Rasa nak menangis jer. Rasa nak beli hadiah kasi kat dia jer.

I feel so fly like a G6. HAHA.

Ehem, ehem tengok gambar kat bawah ni yer, dan sila lah berjealous. Auww.

And now, i'm officially a fan of Ana Mulvoy-Ten.
Really really look up to her now. Sayang dia, tapi lagi sayangkan Jay Park dan awak.

pi es : tetiba teringat dekat kawan yang gila exited bila Imran Ajmain reply tweet dia. Tahniah la kamu. Jom kita lompat lompat ! :)

My JPA interview experience.

2011-04-16T22:23:00.005+08:00

Alert : This is going to be a long post.

Kalau dulu-dulu, selalu jer baca pengalaman pelajar lepasan sekolah lain kena interview. Baca kat blog, dekat laman pendidikan semua tu. Dalam hati, wah, nak jugak go through benda-benda macam ni dalam hidup. Macam best jer kan.

So the other day, masa 8 April 2011. Gementar giler bukak page JPA, nk check sama ada aku ni kena shortlisted untuk interview atau tidak. So i applied for perubatan PILN. Nak sangat buat medic, but the question is do i have what i takes to become a doctor ? insyaAllah.

Alhamdulillah shortlisted. Bahagia macam on cloud nine. Masa tu jugak jawab soalan online. Giler banyak punya soalan. Ada dua bahagian, A dan B. Bahagian A tuh dalam lebih kurang 245 soalan, then bahagian B dalam lebih kurang 290 soalan. Aha, giler banyak kan ?

So interview bertarikh 12 April 2011, bertempat Hospital Universiti Sains Malaysia, pukul 8.50 pagi. So kat sini nak cerita lah pengalaman pertama kali kena interview. WAHH WAHH WAHH.

Masa sampai sana, terus jer daftar, dekat kampus USM. Masa tu dah ramai orang, okay jumpa kawan sekolah lama. Rindu la. So lepas daftar, orang JPA tu ada cakap, dik tunggu dulu yer sebab sekarang ni interview untuk interviewee pukul 8. So im like takper, datang awal, tengok keadaan semua, buat hilang tension nervous.

Pejam celik pejam celik, dah pukul 8.45. Aku di tempatkan dalam Panel 2, bersama 4 lagi calon lain. So kiranya dalam satu panel tu ada 5 orang lah (3 Medicine, 1 Dentistry, 1 Pharmacy). So masuk jer bilik tuh, fuhhhh sejuk la weii. Ada 3 interviewer. Then diorang perkenalkan diri. Kalau tak silap, yang kat tengah tu doktor, yang sorang tu pensyarah Uitm, dan yang sorang lagi tuh entah dah lupa. hik3. Tiga-tiga interviewer tu lelaki.

Panel 2 ni kumpulan biru, warna favourite tuh. auww cun kan? Yang paling cun, dah la panel 2, dapat pulak no 2. aii aiii kenapa la no awal-awal. Yang ni tak lehh blahh la sebab kalau no akhir, at least buleh jugak nk curi satu dua idea interviewee lain kan? HAHA.

So firstly tu self introduction dalam bahasa mat salleh. Yang ni okay la sebab memang dah practise kat rumah. Tapi english-english ni memang lemah la. So kat sini nak summarise soalan yang interviewer tuh tanya.

1) What course did you choose and why ?
2) Patriotism in foreign countries.
3) Kerajaan atau swasta ?
4) Kenapa nak pergi oversea dan tak nak further dalam Malaysia ?
5) Why should JPA send you ?
6) Kenapa ramai yang dah habis belajar tapi tak nak balik ?
7) Studying oversea is longer compare to Malaysia, your opinion ?

I think that was all. The questions weren't 100% asked like that, but from my perspective, that's how i see it, so i answered them according to how i understand it. Thank God we didn't have any current issue questions. Or else i'm just gonna sit there with my mouth open as i wait for the interview to end.

my rate : 6/10.

I know i could have done a million times better. It was all impromptu. None of us knew what the questions were gonna be like, so my advice to all the interviewee, just be moderate, be mature (even if you're not, just act mature for the sake of your future), smile throughout the interview and don't be afraid to voice out your opinions in anything.

to be continued...

Hari special tak baik menyumpah.

2011-03-29T07:19:00.004+08:00

Dah macam berabad tak update apa-apa kat blog ni kan? sekarang macam dah busy la. Sibuk buat ini sibuk buat itu, tu tak termasuk kemalasan yang berleluasa lagi.

Tapi hari ni nekad nak update blog, sebab hari ni hari special aku. yeep, kau dah lapas belas yer Rinee. Takper dah tak underage, kalau nak kahwin pun dah legal. sukaaaa nyaaaa.

Okay okay, nak cakap pasal youtube sebenarnya. Korang-korang pernah yer teringin sangat nak tengok satu video ni dalam youtube, tak kisah la video apa sekalipun, then search punya search WAHH DAH TERJUMPA ! excited punya lah top, then cepat-cepat tutup tab tab yang lain. Yer ah sebab tak nak bagi loading lambat ke haper.

Dengan penuh semangat kan, korang aper lagi, tekan link video tuh. Masa ni tengah senyum la, sampai ke telinga then tunggu punya tunggu, keluar la benda hitam ni.

eh ehh menyampah nyer uploader ni.

haha, tak ke rasa nak bunuh orang ? eh giler punya uploader buat tak available pulak kat negara aku. Masa ni memang senyuman ayu manis tu hilang terus. Rasa nak kutuk-kutuk jer uploader ni. Apa yang special sangat sampai kena buat private segala ni? Kau tahu menyampah? HAHA.

Memang eii eiii eii kalau lah hari ni bukan hari istimewa sedunia, aku dah lama menyumpah sakan minah/mamat nie. Haha tapi tak, aku baik. heeee serious, tak tipu. haha. okay sabo rinee sabo. Kiter bako jer dia.

p/s : tahun ni sambut birthday sorang-sorang. pakwe takleh balik, kena buat show dekat US. Dia kan penyanyi. of course, hebat kan? HAHA. okay, ps ni tipu.

I'm 18 and I'm a mother

2011-03-06T08:12:00.006+08:00

Yes, it's true. Infact, i'm a mother of two babies. I know, it's so cool.

My dad actually bought me these two babies during chinese new year so it's like chinese new year present or something. And no worries it's not illegal, because the government actually allow you to do something like this, o yeah, well at least here in my country.

Babes and dudes sekalian jangan salah faham, ni bukan kes jualan bayi, no it's not homosapien. My dad wouldn't do something like that. Haha ni mesti dah terpedaya kan? Actually the babies i was referring to was hedgehog. Korang kenal Sonic the hedgehog? Yer haiwan comel tu la, mini landak. Sangat cute dan sangat comel.

Papa beli dua ekor. So cepat-cepat nak kasi nama la kan, my kawan ada suggested nama Kibod, yang ni panjang cerita, jadi sangat lah malas nak tulis kat sini. I thought of naming the other one Queen but my brother insisted of using the name Dazzle instead of Queen. And so being a good sister like i always am, i agreed to his demand (since it wasn't really a suggestion). Bwahaha.

So ini Kibod. This was when my dad first bought him, which was a while ago. Yeah, i know he looks really aggressive in this picture. And the quills are kinda sharp. Pada awalnya memang dia sangat takutkan rinee, aku muka macam penjahat ke? Jangan la takut baby baby.

Haaa, yang ni gambar latest. Took this picture after giving him a warm bath. Cute kan? Makin comel sekarang maybe sebab feed mealworms so jadi chubby sikit. Takper, tuan dia pun bukan kurus sangat. HAHAHA. Nanti kita diet together yer baby. I tried rotating this picture, but it just didn't work out. Sorry.

Gambar baby yang satu lagi, Dazzle, cannot be uploaded sebab dia macam cute on the outside but aggressive in the inside so bila nk picture-picture jer terus lari. Macam dia kenal jer camera, waaaaa baby bajet artis eh? Ok lah, kalau macam tu mummy jadi mamarazzi.

Yupe that's it. My babies.
I love you Kibod Dazzle.

masa Jepun-Jepun dulu

2011-03-02T21:05:00.006+08:00

tadi, macam biasa rutin aku hari-hari, mesti tengok balik folder-folder gambar yang diwujudkan dekat wall desktop ni. Bila dah tengok jer, mesti teringat kat memori lama. Rindu memori lama. Oh yer memang, Rinee ni suka berpegang pada memori dulu kala.

"Those who don't remember the history are condemned to repeat it"

Quote di ambil dari buku sejarah sekolah. Kalau bercakap pasal teknologi yang advance awesome habis kan, sah-sah negara Jepun terbayang dalam kepala kan? Haa, makanya aku kat sini nak cakap masa dulu kala, time aku kat jepun, aku ada pergi toilet kat satu restaurant ni, nama restaurant tu, entah dah lupa.

Okay ceritanya macam ni, masa pergi toilet, aku nampak ada satu notis ni. Nasib dalam bahasa mat salleh, faham jugak lah aku pun. So masuk toilet, baca notis tuh, tergelak sorang-sorang. HAHA. cepat-cepat keluarkan camera, then ambik gambar.

tandas wanita

Dalam hati, niat nak tunjuk kat adik-adik lelaki dan papa yang tak boleh masuk dalam tandas wanita la kan. Semangat giler kot aku time tu.

Berlari-lari anak, aha tak leh blahh, aku pun tunjuk la gambar ni kat adik-adik aku and papa sekali. Tersenyum kitorang kat meja makan. Macam cute kan? AHA. Adik aku kata, eh eh kat tandas lelaki pun ada notis macam ni. Aku pun apa lagi, nah adik, pergi ambil gambar notis tu.

Adik yang baik menurut perintah kakak. So adik aku pun snap snap la notis tu. Gambarnya seperti di bawah.

tandas lelaki

Okay sedikit blur. Mungkin adik aku nervous kot masa tu? Tapi apepun terima kasih sebab sudi menurut perintah kakak mu. I love you.

Haa, macam cute kan notis-notis yang tertampal dekat tandas di jepun ni kan? Yer, babes dan dudes sekalian kalau nak tengok notis ni dengan mata sendiri, boleh la singgah-singgah ke tandas di Jepun yer. Somewhere dekat daerah Tokyo.

Bila tandas kat Malaysia nak ada notis macam ni? Or dah ada tapi aku tak perasan?

Driving test, Ujian memandu.

2011-02-28T21:30:00.006+08:00

Hari ni hari yang paling 'nerve-wrecking moment' untuk pemegang-pemegang lesen L, okay maybe bukan untuk semua tapi yang pasti untuk aku. Nervous yang tak berkesudahan. Tapi semalam tidur okay jer. Takde pulak gangguan ke apa.

Test jpj. Penting kan? Mana tak nya, kalau lulus jer dah boleh nak racing-racing dengan minah rempit kat luar sana. Kalau takder lesen mana boleh, kena arrest kat polis la nanti, illegal driving and racing. Okay itu bukan topiknya. Tadi test jpj sepatutnya dalam pukul 10.30 tapi delay-delay macam flight airasia ke aper, tgk-tgk dah kul 11++.

Dapat no 20. Number ni bitter sweet. Satu part lulus, satu lagi gagal. Bitter sweet kan?

Aku tak lulus part driving kat atas jalan raya tu. Dapat 13/20 jer. Komen dalam paper tuh fuhh panjang giler. Tapi jpj aku tak de la macam dalam gambar kat atas ni. Dia xde la nak marah ke apa, dia just duduk diam from starting sampai la habis. Sunyi sepi, macam romantik pulak kan? Kalau ada sinaran bulan, wow perfect.

Auww aku tahu kenapa tak lulus, sebab dia nak date dgn aku lagi la tu. Okay tipu, gedik sangat. Dia tulis dalam paper tu, aku buat kesalahan mandatori (sp). Okay bila aku buat? Tak ingat pun.

Nasib baik yang litar punya lulus. Kalau tak memang aku @bfafb&$&basdc ! HAHA.

Aku fail kali ni. Tak per, bukan nya aku akan suicide pun sebab gagal. Aku just duduk sorang-sorang mengenang nasib, mengira bilangan titisan mata gitu jer. Dah fail kali ni, hopefully nanti second time aku lulus la pulak. Hopefully.

InsyaAllah.

pictures are credited to google.

You're still beautiful, okay sweet.

2011-02-25T15:32:00.006+08:00

semalam syok-syok lepak kat youtube, terjumpa la satu video ni.

habis tengok jer, terus tunjuk kat mama. apa lagi, mama pun dengan sempoi segalanya join tengok.

habis video tu, mama terus komen. negative feedback pulak tu. katanya mama buat apa cari laki yang macam ni, dia nak kat perempuan tu sebab dia cantik jer. kalau nak cari laki tue, cari la yang suka kat kita because of our inner beauty, bukan sebab luaran.

ehem mama, anak mama ni suruh tengok sebab nak tunjuk betapa sweetnya lelaki tu jer sebenarnya. Mesej video tu tak sampai kot. Sebab tu mama tak faham. Mana nak cari laki macam tu mama. You're still beautiful. Tak ke sweet tu? auwwww. terasa gedik sekejap.

okay ni sekadar gambar hiasan. macam la aku faham bahasa korea.

lepak-lepak lagi kat youtube, jumpa yang original punya. okay no wonder video kat atas tu cakap remake.

dua-dua pun sweeeeeeet.

sweet kan kan kan? jom guling-guling tengok video nie. hero yang ni handsome kan? gedik mood dah datang balik yawww. HAR HAR.

okay bye, off to piano class. nanti lewat kena marah kat papa. :'(

zhai jian

Life is one big road with lots of signs

2011-02-22T22:15:00.007+08:00

In a certain point in our lives, whether it was the last few hours, yesterday, two days ago, last year and so on, we must have atleast once, or twice, felt like giving up, or even worse, felt like ending our lives.

gambar ni amat menakutkan, kan? sorry terpaksa guna.

Maybe you haven't, but i have. It's the moment where everything just seems so wrong. The moment where everything fail to impress you - you failed in everything you do continuously, being called names by other people, being teased, being judged, being ignored by your own friends, being bullied and the list just go on.

And in your mind, the only solution to end this problem once and for all is to just suicide. Once your dead, you don't have to worry about these problems anymore. You can just rest in peace, or at least that's what you think. But hey, remember this, God doesn't make mistakes.

He made you, and for surely it wasn't a mistake. You were destined to live, even everyone has a reason to live. When you're facing a problem, just compare that problem to bigger ones, and you will somehow see that life is a lot easier.

Screw people who bullied you, who called you names, who called you a bitch, fat, ugly or black. The only way to revenge, is to be better than them. Maybe not physically, but mentally. Be better than them in education. Show them who's the boss in the future. They are the perfect ones now, but beauty doesn't last forever.

Everyone has a reason to live, you just have to find it. And as for me, the reason i want to keep living is because i'm thankful to God for blessing me with a wonderful family who loves me just the way i am.

Sekeping gambar membawa seribu makna.

So don't give up in life. Giving up is for cowards. Smile and stand up with pride. We all have a meaning and function in this world, because God just doesn't make mistakes.

pictures are from tumblr and google, minus the last one.

sini sana, korean wave.

2011-02-19T23:30:00.008+08:00

sedang menulis ini sambil mendengar lagu Ricky Martin - yes, i know dia memang tersangat hot. Who knows maybe tiba-tiba datang ilham atau idea untuk guna ayat-ayat yang agak sophisticated sikit kan?

Tadi, i was going through my folder dekat desktop computer ni. Then terjumpa satu gambar yang membawa sejuta satu maksud. Itu gambar masa zaman muda, takde lah muda sangat pun sebab gambar tu tahun 2009, sekarang kan dah 2011.

so this is the picture :

haha, buruk gila tulisan.

kenapa ambil gambar macam ni?

Okay so here's the story behind the picture. Back in 2009, the ex-leader of 2PM, Park Jaebeom or better known as Jay Park, telah menarik diri dari kumpulan yang agak hot tu. Kalau nak cerita kenapa dia tarik diri semua tu, fuhh, memang beyond my will la sebab cerita dia memang panjang, okay takde la sepanjang sinetron indonesia tu, tapi agak panjang jugak la.

And after Jay tarik diri, salah satu admin dari 2PM official international website keluarkan statement untuk buat video footage pasal peminat Jay from all over the world, you know, just to show our forever lasting love for him, and also to support him dalam semua keputusan yang dia buat. So ada peminat jay sorang ni from that site suruh saya buat jugak, since i'm also, kinda, his biggest fan. So saya buat la.

Rules and regulations nya amat lah mudah. Just ambil gambar message yang ingin di sampaikan kepada Jay beserta bendera negara anda, tourist destination di negara anda atau basically anything that can represent the country you are from. anda faham? mudah kan. Sebab tu ada gambar bendera Malaysia kat belakang tu. ehem bendera tu dulu saya pinjam dari kelas 4 Damai. Yer bendera Malaysia, bukan bendera Amerika.

So yeah, lepas siap, i just submitted the picture. Easy. And don't ask me about the video footage tu sebab ever since Jay keluar dari 2PM, and selepas saya submit jer gambar nie, saya jarang dah ke website tu. So i don't know if they actually include my picture in the video or not, but who cares, since i just did it for fun. weeeeee fun nyaaa.

okay, lagu Ricky Martin dah habis. Nampak tak tattoo Jay yang tulis JWALKERZ tu? well, in case korang tak tahu, Jwalkerz tu official name untuk peminat setia Jay. Jwalkerz seluruh dunia memang hebat!

Ini semua kenangan masa 2009. I still like Jay and i'm totally proud of it. May your career go no where but up.

Hello, pickup lines.

2011-02-17T22:59:00.004+08:00

oh yeah, the cheesy corny pickup lines.

i was reading this fanfiction in soompi. yupe, it's a forum where it's mainly dedicated to all those die-hard kpop fans. but they also have some non-kpop related topics. okay promote promote. by the way, where was i? oh yeah the fan fiction.

was reading the fanfic made by a few soompiers, and i can't help but to notice the pickup lines they used in their fanfics, well not all but some of it. Not that i am against it or anything, it's just that sometimes, i wonder why girls fall for those cheesy corny pickup lines. I'm a girl, and i just don't understand it. Oh, i'm so confused.

"Your lips look so lonely. Would they like to meet mine?"

"Good thing i brought my library card, because i'm checking you out"

"You must be from Pearl Habour, because baby you're da bomb"

"You remind me of a magnet, because you sure are attracting me over here"

okay stop. four is enough. So you do get my point here, right? To be honest those are not exactly the pickup lines in the fanfics, because obviously i can't remember the exact words or something but still, you get my point right? Please say yes!

So i hope anyone is kindly enough to explain to me why a few, not all, girls like guys who use those cheesy pickup lines to flirt with them. I am just so confused. Guys can always be honest and just confess to the girl, i think i like you.

I know this is kinda lame. I am so confused and bored. At the same time. wowwww. and oh yeah, just so you know, my babies are getting bigger now. I think it's because i treat them mealworms. yummmmmy.

zhai jian

school and its uniform

2011-02-16T13:46:00.007+08:00

i've been updating my blog quite often lately. woww, rinee, you must be really bored, aren't you? my gawd, i pity your boring life.

stop it right there. my life is not boring. or dull. i lead a wonderful life, well sometimes. I live my life, sorta, like a vampire lately, you know waking up when the sun is no longer on top of your head, sleeping when the roosters started to make the cock a doodle doo sound and so on. except, i don't sleep in coffins and i don't drink blood. yupe, fun it is.

anyway, all of those are out of topic. what i was trying to write here actually was that, i was going through my friendship folder, and i found a few pictures of me and my friends webcamming (there is such word, right?) in school uniform. i just thought of sharing it here.

i don't remember when we took this picture and why was i wearing the semenza shirt but oh well who cares, i still love this picture anyway. hmm though i still wonder was it 2009 or 2010. Man, i sure do have a short term memory.

this picture was taken using afifah's laptop web camera on the last day of school in 2009. The girl on the upper right, yeah the one wearing tudung with the sic's badge, yeah, she's from sms muar, johor. she's not from sic, don't get her wrong. peace.

and this picture, lastly, was taken in 2008 after the PMR examination. We all certainly did our best in the examination, didn't we? to be honest, i think 2008 was the best year for me so far.

and that's it. there are a lot more pictures in the friendship folder, but i just feel like sharing a few. the name of the folder, haha, friendship folder, sounds a little bit corny, isn't it? HAHA. yeah, i know i can be a little bit corny sometimes, thus explains the corny folder name. rawr.

everybody let's go ooooooouuuuu, i found this picture in a popular social web. the web shall be kept as a secret coughTUMBLRcough. heeee. it's a nice school uniform isn't it? this kinda uniform makes the students look more mature, neat and well, gorgeous? yeah i can't think of any word but beautiful isn't it?

i love it. and i'm out. peace.

zhai jian

Awesome day with awesome people

2011-02-14T22:03:00.008+08:00

warning : i think somehow today's update is gonna be a lot longer than usual so feel free to click on the x button on the upper right of your screen if you don't feel like reading this awesome update. HAHA. just kidding. not awesome at all.

so exactly two days ago, i went to this Karnival Pengajian Tinggi which was held at KTC. It was hmm how do i describe it in two words? oh yeah SARDINE CAN. it was packed. school students were everywhere. i repeat everywhere. okay, i thought this carnival thingy was supposed to be for SPM and STPM leavers, or did i get the information wrong?

went to this carnival with Ina, Nadia, Afifah, Leen and Shafiq. yupe jump up and down in joy! bersorak riang macam gif 2NE1 tu. And we bumped into Mimi and Mira somewhere in the building. Honestly, i was sweating like gilaaa aircond tak berfungsi ke? Eh lupa, takder aircond kat tempat yang swasta punya tu. Dah la asyik duk bertepuh tangan dengan lelaki-lelaki kat sana. yawww. eh tak baik, berdosa. mengucap.

later that afternoon, we jalan-jalan kaki ker noodle station. omg panas, sweating, letih. wahh, what a perfect combination. HAR HAR. Dekat sini baru ambil gambar sebab yer lah takkan nak bergambar dalam KTC yang packed macam sardine can and fyi, i could barely breath in there. oh yeah.

yang kanan Shafiq, yang kiri Inani. Mereka takder hubungan apa-apa yer, so jangan pandai-pandai nak timbulkan scandal sebab gambar nie. Nanti boyfriend si Inani tu marah. Harr, kecoh satu negeri nanti youuu.

Yang kanan Rinee, yang kiri Nadia. Kitorang senyap jer. Sebab kitorang budak baik, tak buat bising dekat tempat awam. awww silakan puji beramai-ramai.

makan-makan borak-borak. cantikkan leen yang kanan dan afifah yang kiri? yer i know! aku sayang gila korang. mwahh kanan mwahh kiri. ini satu jer gambar original, yang lain semua kena assemble.

Lepas siap makan segala, me and Shafiq went back to KTC, oh yeah walking under the hot bright sun while exposing our innocent skins to uv rays. crahhhzeee. while the three went to mall in search for jobs. InsyaAllah dapat. THE END.

haha, bila tulis the end tu, rasa macam story book la pulak, ala-ala cinderalla gituee. okay, seriously aku sayang gila korang ! Thanks sebab lepak sama-sama. I love you people.

pi es : test jpj 28/2. lambat gilaa.
pi es : betul ker result spm bulan februari? Ya Allah.
pi es : atas inggeris, bawah melayu. hebat aku. eh it rhymes.
pi es : rinee dah pandai pakai gifs dalam post dia. majuu.
pi es : banyakk gila pi es. HAR HAR.

zhai jian.

Sorry x1000

2011-02-12T08:47:00.005+08:00

Hari ni pagi-pagi dah rasa sedih, rasa nak nangis atas kesalahan sendiri. Idiotic betul la kau ni rinee. Berapa kali dah kau buat kesalahan sama ni? memang bagai mencurah air ke daun keladi betul la. berubah yer. sila berubah.

Pagi tadi, bangun jer terus nak hantar text dekat kawan. Nak tanya pasal program hari ni. Then tak boleh send. So try call pulak, celcom yang jawab. Dia cakap the credit dot dot dot. Aku pun terkejut siot la kan.

So cepat-cepat pergi bilik papa. Papa bukak laman web celcom, nak check bil handphone rinee. Sambil tu dia suruh isi UPU fasa 2 jugak tapi sayang, UPU tak boleh isi lagi. Ada internal error apa entah. so ignore bab itu.

Bukak jer web tu, check bil yang rinee guna this month. Terkejut papa. Dah sampai credit limit. Banyak gilaaa. Papa cakap, nih rinee mari tengok sdiri nie sbb tu xleh call doh sapa credit limit doh. Then kena marah. Kena ceramah.

Papa macam disappointed gila dengan rinee. Sorry papa.

So aku tengok screen computer tu, terkejut dengan bil telefon sendiri. Masa tu rasa nak nangis ada. yer ala-ala merlin dalam gif tu la. Sorry papa. Entah berapa kali kena cakap sorry kat papa sebab tak nak bagi papa kecewa ngan rinee.

Sorry sangat-sangat. Rinee janji, insyaAllah bil bulan depan kurang pada bil bulan nie. Sorry sebab hampakan papa.

pi es : sakit hati dgn adik. instead of bagi kata-kata semangat kan, dia cakap tu baru bil handphone, tunggu bil telefon rumah sampai pulak. OMG!

zhai jian

hari ini dalam sejarah

2011-02-11T20:51:00.006+08:00

okay tipu. takde masa la nak buat buat sejarah nie. saya bukan orang famous amos. yumm.

i woke up quite late today. maybe sebab semalam tido lewat. so tadi pun bangun dalam tengah hari lebih-lebih jugak la. i was dizzy at first maybe sebab i overslept. forgot to turn on my alarm last night. gila sakit hati. seumur hidup tak pernah pun tido tak pasang alarm. walaupun kadang-kadang tak dgr pun alarm berbunyi kan, still nak pasang jugak. haha.

so woke up masa zohor tadi macam terpinga-pinga jer. dengan pening nya rasa macam okay where am i? tengok sekeliling macam eh ni bukan bilik aku. kat mana nie? aku kena culik ke?

okay tipu. tu sajer exaggerate nak suruh nampak interesting. HAHA. just bangun pagi and tengok jam jer. terkejut sebab bangun lewat jadi rasa agak pening.

this is all because i slept late last night, which caused me to oversleep. tapi takper la tak kisah pun. salah aku jugak sebab gedik nak tido lewat. kul empat pagi tau. tak pernah lagi tido selewat itu. masa spm pun tak tido lewat. bajet baik kan. budak baik kena tido awal. HAR HAR.

so then kawan text tanya pergi tak karnival jom masuk U apa entah, lupa dah. cakap kat dia, oh sorry tak tanya lagi my mum. serious tak tanya. dah la yang UPU fasa 2 pun tak isi lagi. aishh, hidup dah tak terurus nampaknya bila jadi penganggur nie. kena hire secretary satu untuk rinee. nak yang handsome kacak macam merlin eh. buleh tak papa?

tadi baru tanya mama pasal karnival tu and to my surprise, she said yes tanpa bertanya panjang. okay ni satu improvement! sebab selalu kalau nak keluar ke mana-mana dengan kawan-kawan kan mesti kena bersoal panjang, like seriously tak tipu langsung. so after mama cakap yes jer, i was like yeeeep. arigato mama.

yeah yeah buleh pergi karnival jom masuk U something something tu. heeee. macam excited yg terlebih pulak. buleh jumpa kawan-kawan penganggur yang lama tak jumpa. heeeee.

tumblr, luke and mirashi

2011-02-10T15:08:00.008+08:00

The last few days of my life have been quite a boring page in my book. Even if i were to write a diary about my everyday life, it will surely be 'dear diary, hello. i had zero fun today. bye. xoxo.'

no seriously. nothing exciting happened to me for the last few days. i wasn't hoping for 'merlin or jay to actually knock on my door and ask me to be their bride' or 'a hot looking guy would kidnap me to London and force me to be his forever' kind of excitement. because that would be impossible and even if it's possible, i doubt my mum would let me marry at this age. but hey that's out of topic, so let's come back. HAHA.

okayy since i was bored for the past few days (how many times exactly have i been using the word for the past few days? haha) i decided to do some tumblr hunting. fyi, i don't have any tumblr account so i can't really reblog the pictures i like.

tumblr hunting, ohyeah. does it sounds weird? anyway, i found this awesome gif of luke pasqualino. like omg he's drooling hot. just incase you guys have no idea who he is, he's one of the main actors in Skins UK. yeah, a lot of people here in malaysia, obviously haven't seen the series before because it's not shown here. too many slangs, bad words and curses. so i watched it online in youtube. yeah babe, i'm a baaaaaad girl. haha.

see, what did i told you? hotness overload, isn't it? okay so when i first saw this gif, the first person that popped into my mind was mirashi. ohyeah she's my girl. she's a big fan of luke. all hail freddie... i mean luke pasqualino.

this is her. my mirashi. oh girl, hope you wouldn't mind i put a picture of you here. i'll inform you later about this. i promise. i heart you with all my heart. now that i give my luke to you, hopefully you'll stay away from my merlin. HAHA.

so yeah, she was also the one that kinda got me into tumblr thingy, though i don't have my own account, i still love tumblr because well, i found a lot of interesting pictures and gifs there that i would love to use it in my blog sooner or later. ohyeah.

zhai jian

stuff you need to know about me

2011-02-08T15:10:00.006+08:00

Yeah, ummm no not really.

"Once you have been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random random, things, fact, habits, or goal about you at the end, choose people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged. If I tag you, its because I want to know more about you, your cooperation is highly appreciated."

okay so here's the thing, i was tagged by my fellow friend, Ina Hishamuddin, to do sort of a survey about myself and the problem is that i have to list 25 things about me, probably things about me that other people don't know. yeah right 25 is wayyy too many.

and since i'm quite a lazy person, i've decided to do only ten. yes yes, it's gonna be short, hopefully. so here goes everybody. buckle up and enjoy reading, please.

1. I am scared of cockroaches. I've been fearing this creepy creature ever since i was a little girl. they have wings, they fly, smell, and well you know how they look like. just plain creepy.

2. I used to have hamsters and rabbits as my pets, but they all died long time ago, which explains why i said i used to have, not i have.

3. I love the everything about merlin. i love colin morgan as merlin. aww isn't he adorable? in the land of myth and a time of magic, the destiny of a great kingdom rests on the shoulders of a young boy, his name merlin. yeeeeeeeeeep. gosh, he makes me melt.

4. I play the piano. okay here's a fact, just because i say i can play the piano, it doesn't mean that i can play the piano well and if you love your ears, don't hear anything played by me.

5. oh my we are halfway to ten. People call me either rinee or sha. those are the two common most used name called by people and friends. Truth to be told, i've always prefer people to call me rinee. i think rinee suits me better.

6. I love to speak and write in english. yeah i know, you're gonna laugh reading this. and i'm sure you guys probably are gonna be like how can you possibly love to speak and write in english when obviously you have broken english? YEAH HAHA GO ON AND LAUGH AT ME, ATLEAST I TRIED. wow whats with caps?

7. I used to have a crush on a guy for 4 years. insane, i know ! hmm, i wonder what kind of magic spell he used on me? jampi bomoh black magic ke apa? haha okay lame story, let's move on.

8. My weight is, oh wait this is a little bit too personal. My weight is my secret. HAHA.

9. I love United Kingdom of Great Britain, duhh UK for short - England, Wales, etc. I love british accent. Why wasn't i born there? okay rinee bersyukur dengan apa yang ada. Saya cinta Malaysia jugak.

10. finally the last one. I'm a girl, and i can't cook. There's nothing to be ashamed of because turn on the tv to channel AFC 703 in Astro, sit back and wow all the top chefs in the world are guys!

here is ina's post about this tag thingy

should i tag other friends? well to anyone who feels like doing it, ermm you know, do it. not gonna force or burden anyone to do this tag survey thingy. it took me 2 hours to think of only ten. HAHA.

zhai jian.

Today was a fairytale

2011-01-30T00:31:00.007+08:00

and Taylor Swift was right. Today really was a fairytale.

Before i start off this post with the real deal, i just wanna say 'Mum, thank you for letting me spend my evening with my friends today.' It was such a memorable day.

I don't really know what to write but seriously today was fcking awesome ! oh sorry i had to use the F word since i just wanna show my excitement in words, but somehow i failed to do so. I'm so sorry for the negative influence. HAHA.

Spent the evening with my friends, Nadia, Afifah, Inani, just to name a few. It was hella fun. To be honest, I don't really like going to public places where there are like hundreds of other people doing the same thing as you do, which is sitting down and do nothing. I might be suffering from social phobia? Who knows.

So basically i was at the mall around 2.30pm, met my closest most amazing crazy friends and just chit chatting non stop. FUN. And Rinee left the building (haha, ohyeah Elvis Presley babeh) at 5.30pm, or so.

And this picture, thank you Mr.Hafiz for taking it. It turned out well. Babes, sorry for not taking a lot of pics with you guys today. I am a shy person in front of the camera. haha yeah right.

If you think your friends are awesome, wait till you meet mine. You'll change your mind in the nick of time. oh yeah. Kawan-kawan, thanks for a wonderful evening. Kocham ciebie.

my life - my dream

2011-01-27T13:30:00.008+08:00

Yesterday went to the hospital with papa and tokwan. Papa asked me to follow sebab papa ada operation that day so he can't assist tokwan for her checkup so that's why I had to follow, to assist Tokwan. Yer, terpaksa bangun awal.

Firstly, sampai sana terus pergi bilik x-ray sebab nak x-ray jantung tokwan. To see if the condition is getting better or worsen, or something like that. Papa cakap after done with everything, baru call him but if he isn't answering his phone, call mama. So after x-ray, pergi dekat one place ni - i dont know orang panggil tempat apa. haha. Jumpa dengan one of the doctors kat sana. Okay, salute dia habis-habis sebab tengok dia pun dah macam wow, i want to be like him oneday. InsyaAllah. He said Tokwan's condition is getting better, which is a relief to us family.

Haha. then the best part ni, datang la seorang lagi doktor ni. He's a cardiac specialist. Ok exactly that moment terus goosebumps. Macam kalau boleh nak salute bow segala kat dia. Memang hebat giler. Dia macam cool gila. Sekali lagi the feeling datang, WOW I WANNA BE LIKE HIM ONEDAY. Then borak dengan beliau sikit-sikit. Beliau tanya nak further study macam kakak ke. Nak ambil course sama ke and semua tu. Kalau ada rezeki, yes, memang nak jadi macam kakak. She's my idol.

Okay lepas tu jumpa student medic yang ohmygod. Kalau jumpa dia tak pakai medical lab coat tu confirm takkan cakap dia student medic. haha. chinese, putih, rambut terpacak segala. handsome sangat. kalau sakit pun confirm sembuh. haha. Jumpa students medic yang lain-lain pun semua pakai medical lab coats dengan backpack. Rasa nak jadi macam diorang. InsyaAllah.

So after habis pergi dekat that room tu, i think it's a sorta macam ruangan untuk pesakit yang ada kaitan dengan jantung kot, then pergi dekat farmasi untuk pesakit luar. ambil ubat and balik. finally. letih doe tunggu giliran ambil ubat. lamaaaaa gila. haha.

Ya Allah, saya buleh ke jadi doktor? InsyaAllah.

pi es : both pictures are from google.

a rocket to the moon

2011-01-19T21:11:00.005+08:00

Lately semua benda sekeliling aku buat aku happy. Tak kisah la pasal family, friendship atau apa apa la kan. Maybe 2011 will definitely be a better year for me, at least i hope. And untuk awak, you might not realise this but everything you say and do just makes me smile. seriously.

sekarang tengah layan lagu ni. memang best tapi the band tak famous sangat, more like underdog in the industry but i have faith in them that oneday they will be famous, like really famous. been loving them ever since i first heard their song in youtube ; like we used to. ohyeah.

The journey : 2011

2011-01-01T22:41:00.005+08:00

Have you guys ever been in a situation where you feel like something is wrong but at the same time you don't know what is wrong either? It's like you're stuck in a box and you don't know how to get out. errr, that does make sense right?

Well, for some odd unexplainable reasons, i think that is what i am feeling right now. With no way out, with no one to ask help from, with insufficient oxygen to breath, here i am, lost in nowhere.

I need someone to talk to. No no, not someone but a friend. A friend whom i can share this pain with but the same time not troubling her with my pain. And if she asks me what's wrong and if i say i don't know, she's just gonna be like it's okay just lean on my shoulder and everything's gonna be alright.

Yeah, keep on dreaming.

When i stand before God at the end of my life, I hope I would not have any single bit of talent left in me so that i could proudly say "I used everything you gave me".

A quite long and boring post

2010-12-29T09:13:00.002+08:00

The year 2010 is coming to its end. Macam-macam terpaksa harungi tahun ini. From masalah friendship, family to exams. and SPM of course. Semua benda tahun ni rasa macam susah. Terasa hati ngan kawan, ngan family semua. Gawd. Nasib baik semua dah baik. Syukur jugak sebab tahun ni makin rapat dengan kawan semua.

Oh gila rindu kat kawan sekolah. Rindu gila kat deskmate aku. Rindu kat classmates. Rindu kat 'my sek'. Rindu batch form 5 2010 yang hebat-hebat.

Anyway, tahun depan hopefully everything will go out well for me. I hope everything i desire will come true. Tak nak hampakan mana-mana pihak yang terlibat. Tak nak sakitkan hati parents. Tak nak fail exam jpj. and nak result gempak untuk spm. HEEEEE.

Oh btw since it's holiday banyak sgt perkara nak buat. HOHO. Tolonglah biar tercapai. Amin.

- Nak lesen kereta. Sebab sekarang baru ada L. Nak dapat P. Nak pandu kereta sendiri so buleh lah nak melalak ke mana-mana pun. Sebab tak menyusahkan sesapa. Eh wait, duit minyak siapa nak bayar?

- Nak habiskan semua drama movie yang tertangguh sebab exam spm. Oh ini benda wajib buat sepanjang cuti.

- Nak belajar bahasa cina. Papa dan mama, please?

- Nak belajar main lagu bogoshipda guna piano. Okay, kenapa susah sangat? Ini lagu wajib kena pandai sebab ini lagu macam meaningful gituh. haha.

- Nak pandai main guitar ! Oh myyy, guitar oh guitar kenapa susah sangat?

- Nak jumpa awak face to face. HAHA. sebab saya suka awak. Okay, yang ni tak termakbul pun tak per. hahaha.

Okay, seriously banyak benda nak buat. Bila nak start? Bila nak start?

Life is full of secrets and lies

2010-12-27T00:10:00.002+08:00

Let put it this way.

*deep breath and go !

I LIKE YOU SO FREAKING MUCH TO THE POWER OF INFINITY PLUS ONE AND I AM SO STUPID FOR FEELING LIKE THIS WHY CAN'T I STOP !

Pheww. Done !
^_____________________^

This is a no title post.

2010-12-20T01:34:00.003+08:00

Teeeeheeeeeeeee.

Updating my blog before i go to bed because it's like 1.34am right now. But of course by the time i finish writing this, it's gonna be somewhere around 2. i just have a feeling.

Anyway, i just realised how boring life is without school. Of course we all hate homework and being scolded by teachers and so on, but school is the only place where we (and here i'm referring to me and my friends) have the best times of our life. To learn something together, to copy each other work, to cheat in exams, to stay at school together till 6pm, and the lists just go on.

Do you somehow at any point agree to this? (and yes i know i don't have many readers but just in case someone is reading this, do question yourself with that question, ok?)

I've been to an all girls school for 11 years. And i must say, it was the proudest moment in my life. I may not have many guy friends but oh well, if it wasn't for this all girls school, i wouldn't have met these wonderful people aka my friends. Closest or not, i appreciate all of them for being a part of my journey in my teen years.

I said teen years, urgh what was i thinking, i'm still is a teenager next year. 18 and no longer underage. BUAHAHAHA. okay shushhhh. At least no longer underage here in my country because i don't know how it works in other countries. Boohoooo.

And you, i had the most awesome time talking to you last night. You cracked me up with your jokes. DUDE.

I'm done blogging and wow, it's not 2am yet. this is a record ! So i guess i wrote this in errrr maybe around 10 minutes? I suck in Math, bare that in mind. ^___________^

How it all started.

2010-12-15T23:12:00.007+08:00

I didn't know something like this could go out of hand. It all started off with a stupid little crush. Like seriously. He was standing among his friends. And there i was, looking at him from my seat. I looked at him and my friend was like, oh that guy. I smiled, raised up my hand and stared at my friend. Yeah, this is sorta a joke but i guess only me and my friend, who we are going to refer to as M from now onwards, understand it. HAHA.

There. That's it. That was the first time i saw him.

I know i don't have many readers but if there is somehow someone who read this, you're probably gonna be like, what the hell is this girl talking about. am i right? =____________=;; trust me. I purposely wrote it like that to confuse people !

So M, yeah, i know you probably won't read this but hell yeah, i'm actually updating my blog about him. He is one lucky guy. CRUHHHZEEEE !

pi es : Did my ujian undang-undang today at Kotaraya and i passed ! Weee. Dad was so proud of me but mum was like, how on earth did you passed when you didn't even read the effin' text book? HAHA.

pi es : Mum, i am smart. HAHA. okehh liarrrr ~ joking. I just got lucky, i guess !

pi es : I learned this pi es thingy from my friend's blog, Gee Hazman. Mwahh babe i love yaaa !

Smokers will never understand !

2010-12-11T14:16:00.004+08:00

I like guys who don't smoke. Because personally i don't think there's anything cool with smoking. But that's out of the point right now, the point is that there is this one guy who smokes. Yes, i know him and he knows me as well. He's my relative - the name shall be kept as a secret. I am not trying to 'buka pekung di dada' but this is what i feel like sharing in my blog right now. He pissed me off the other day like seriously ! So here is the convo for as far as i can remember :

Guy : Nok make gapo? Order la.
Me : Tok se make lagi lah. Order air jah dulu.

Then order-order semua makanan and minuman. While waiting, he took out his cigarette and began to smoke in front of me ! GAH ! i hate the smell of the smoke ! Like damn seriously.

Me : Guy, tok molek isap rokok. Tengok kat kotok tu siap ado gambar cancer mulut lagih !
Guy : Oloh, ni sajo jah gambar tok se wi ore beli. Nawok jah nih.
Me : EH? Tapi ke merokok buleh mati cepat. Nok mati cepat ko?
Guy : Mano ado gituh. Tuhan tetap belako doh sapo mati bilo. Tak kan lambat atau cepat walaupun sesaat eh.
Me : *sakit hati sero nk nyepakk*

And then the waitress came with the drinks and foods. So this guy pun nak minum la kan. Then i tak tahu kenapa berani pergi tarik glass tuh !

Me : Dahago ko? Tak yoh minum la. Tok ke mati dahago eh. Ke Tuhan tetap doh bilo nok mati. So kalu tok minum pun, tok mati jugak kalu maso tak sapa lagih.
Guy : Nganyi selaluh deh.
Me : Doh sungguh. Tok brehi bau asap rokok. Molek la. Nok rokok jange depe Rinee.

And he stopped. Sebabnya saya marah. I am easily choked by the smell of the cigarette's smoke, seriously no doubt. Which is why i don't want a smoker as my soon-to-be husband. HAHA.

Smoking doesn't only kill the smokers, but they kill the people around them as well !

Sorry if i had offended anyone with this post. Really I am.

jalan-jalan cari makan

2010-12-09T20:19:00.006+08:00

Hari ni aku keluar dengan kawan-kawan yang aku paling sayang ketat-ketat. Mimi, Inani, Nina, Fifah, Hani, Intan, Awa, Nasuuha, Sarah, Mira. Aku paling sayang diorang ni sebab masa sekolah selalu jer lepak dengan minah-minah cantik nih. Selalu gossip sama-sama, makan sama-sama, ke tandas sama-sama, petang-petang pun duduk kat sekolah bersama. Uhkay, lupa kena minus Sarah sebab dia budak mara, tapi dia tetap geng kitorang. Bersama.

Tapi keluar hari ni aku mula-mula rasa janggal sebab yer lah aku mana pernah lepak relax-relax ngan diorang ni walaupun dah kenal bertahun-tahun. Sebab parents aku agak strict. Mungkin aku sekarang lepasan SPM, jadi diorang bagi keluar hari ni kot? Entah. THANKS!

Rasa macam lama giler tak jejak kaki kat mall. Entah apa ada kat sana aku pun tak tahu. Dah la crowded ramai orang. Aku tak suka tempat ramai orang. Aku suka tempat gelap, sunyi, bawah cahaya bulan. Romantik kan. haha. Tapi jangan salah faham, aku bukan pontianak, juga bukan dari keluarga Cullen. Aku just Rinee. Budak berkaca mata.

Enjoy keluar dengan kawan-kawan hari ni walaupun just jalan-jalan, makan dan jalan lagi. Jumpa ramai orang yang muka agak familiar looking. Tak perlu nama disebut. Tak penting. HAHA.

Lain kali kita keluar lagi yer, tapi this time kena cukup geng. Hari ni masih belum lengkap. Kitorang geng besar, yes setuju.

saya layan Bruno Mars

2010-12-08T22:03:00.005+08:00

so spm dah habis, rasa bebas sangat. dah tak perlu hadap buku berjam-jam, dah tak perlu minum milo malam-malam sebab nak tahan mengantok (yer sebab aku tak minum kopi. anti coffee la katakan kecuali kopi-kopi tertentu di starbucks), dah tak perlu gosok mata banyak-banyak kali sebab tak nak bagi tidur, dah tak perlu stay up sampai pukul 2 pagi dan tak perlu nak bangun seawal 5 pagi. sekarang dah boleh nak melalak sepuas-puasnya. mama dan papa pun dah tak marah kalau tak de buku di tangan.

Oh yes, the feeling is awesome but the most important is dah tak rasa guilty bila online sampai berjam-jam. HOHOHO.

Tapi kemerdekaan ini hanya sampai bulan tiga 2011 jer. sebab bila keluar result dah la nak mula sibuk sini sana. InsyaAllah result yang baik yang dapat membanggakan mama papa yang susah payah hantar pergi sekolah dan pusat tuisyen. Ah itu tak termasuk nak pergi berkhidmat kat program latihan khidmat negara lagi. Sibuk kan masa depan tuh? sila pergi jauh-jauh yer encik masa depan. But as for now, all i feel like doing is sleeping, watching dramas and just, well, do nothing. Enjoy this 'short break', chill down, have a sit and enjoy every seconds of the day.

Oh awak, mesti terhebat terkacak jawapan spm awak kan?

and now it's December

2010-12-02T23:12:00.001+08:00

LILY

ES PI EM

2010-11-17T23:43:00.002+08:00

okeh so i guess this would be my last post before the real spm exam which is next week. scary, yes i know. and to top it off, i'm not well prepared just yet. i know i've been wasting a lot of time lately, ehem, like now. haha. i just miss blogging so much, eventhough i don't know what to write. I wish lucks to all the spm candidates that will be sitting for the deadliest exam next week. I'm sure we all can do well, insyaAllah.

pi es : tadi sy online, then nampak die, igt nk tegur die, then suddenly die off. okeh hampa lg kecewa. sedih.

Fuh-Eh-Va

2010-11-02T21:46:00.004+08:00

Kenapa die selalu online? Sebab dia online, saya jadi tak nak tutup computer ni. I shouldn't be doing this to myself. Torturing myself by liking him. Rinee, do realise that you'll never going to end up with him. Uhkay, the only one thing that can make me happy, Jay's video. Gotta go and watch em now. Yes i should stop torturing my heart.

A gift from papa

2010-10-21T19:42:00.004+08:00

A gift from papa. Thanks for giving me this as a present. I will try my hardest in SPM so that you will be proud to have me as your daughter. Papa, thanks for always giving me encouragement in times where i feel like broken down, in times of hardness and sadness. I love you so freaking much.

Yes, the guy on my phone's background is Jay. He's my hottie most amazing looking hubby everr. haha. pardon me while i'm fantasizing about him. Anyway, the pink one is mine and the blue on is my brother's phone. We love it love it.

So close yet so far away

2010-10-15T13:59:00.010+08:00

Saya suka awak. Suka tengok awk senyum. Sangat manis ok. Awak buat saya senyum, buat hati saya kadang2 rasa nak tercabut and yes awk tak tahu dan takkan tahu. Awk terlalu baik, xsesuai untuk org macam saya. Awak terlalu outstanding dlm segala perkara awk buat, terlalu berbeza dgn saya. Saya just harap awk buleh terus senyum jerr sebab senyuman tu yang selalu buat saya tersenyum jugakk.

If others are imperfect, then i'm beyond it. Which is why i know i can never have you.

But i'm grateful enough that you existed in this world because a simple hello from you is enough to give me a lifetime happiness. Thanks for letting me look at you while you're looking at someone else.

i think i have the weirdest most awkward smile everrr~! :PP
and owhh i look so gayyyyy. haha XD

Motivating myself

2010-10-07T20:20:00.004+08:00

不要在失去后才后悔。失去的就让它过去。珍惜眼前，忘记过去，这才是人生的意义。我相信我自己，我相信我能成功。

BLANK

2010-09-24T20:12:00.005+08:00

I have to endure this. If only i can easily forget about it. I'm sorry for feeling like this but your words hurt me wayy too much. Sometimes i don't even know why you acted that way. Is it because you're ashamed of me or maybe you're annoyed by me. I don't know nor will i ever know. I'm sick of having this feeling because it doesn't make anything any better. Worst. Sometimes i think it's my fault but i can't blame myself for acting this way too because you're older, you've been living life longer than i do so you should know why i acted this way. Urgh. Allah, tolong hilangkan perasaan marah ini.

This is a blank post.

Bila saya bercakap sendiri

2010-09-16T11:15:00.003+08:00

Aku kena jujur dengan diri aku. Kenapa aku macam malas giler nak belajar sekarang nie. Rinee ko sedar tak yang SPM makin dekat, bukan makin jauh? Ko ingat dengan asyik dalih and relax cam ni buleh bagi ko markah tinggi2 ke dalam exam yang giler susah tu?

Ko kena ingat Rinee, SPM tu penentu hidup. Hidup ini untuk orang bijak, kalau ko nak survive dalam dunia nie, baik ko pergi baca buku tu. Buat elok2 dalam exam dan jangan ko ingat kejayaan ko yang lepas2 tu bakal berulang cam tu jer kalau ko xpergi study. Sacrifice lah sekejap hal2 remeh temeh ker yang xpenting dalam hidup ko tu. Bukan nak suruh stop terus pun sebab memang tau ko xkan buat macam tu tapi just kurangkan sikit waktu ko buang masa tu.

InsyaAllah mula daripada esok (sebab hari ni macam malas lagi) aku akan berubah sikit2. Aku nak dapat straight A dalam SPM, ak nak menangis kegembiraan macam tahun 2008 dulu. Aku nak parents aku bangga ada anak macam aku sebab setakat nie aku xtahu pun apa yang aku pernah buat dalam hidup yang telah membanggakan parents aku.

(Oishh ayat atas macam berbelit ker?) haha. Nak emo kejap pun xjadi sebab BM aku yang tunggang langgang nie. Xper xper di maafkan.

Ayat ni skema sikit tapi xper hentam ajer lah. Baca baik2 eh. Ok ok emo balik.

"Aku yakin kesulitan yang aku alami pasti akan memberi kelapangan dan kesenangan dalam kehidupan aku kelak."

Ececeeee, terbaik la ayat tu. haha. Syok sendiri. Tak tahu malu. HAHA. Dah la kejap emo kejap ceria balik. Tak betul tak betul. ADIOS!

J'aime regarder des films

2010-09-15T20:07:00.003+08:00

I love watching movies

So finally the 2 weeks holiday is coming to an end. Oh don't worry this post is not gonna be about exams, education or anything related to it. Sigh of relief. Since the 2 weeks holiday is about to end in another 3 days or so, i decided to list down the movies i manage to watch during the holiday. Yeah i know i was supposed to use my time wisely by reading SPM-related books but how can i resist the temptation of watching movies. Especially teen movies or films or whatever you call it. Ok so here's the list.

Rinee's title-of-movie-during-2-weeks-holiday list:

Tormented
Starstruck
Fired Up
Camp Rock 2
Never Back Down
Not Another Teen Movie
Beauty and the Briefcase
He's just not that into you

WOW, that's a lot of movies. Yeah, i did use my time wisely. HAHA.

.___________________. ngee3~!

People change for the better

2010-09-13T23:04:00.002+08:00

Aku nak berubah.
Aku budak SPM.

I wish everything was a lot easier. I wish i could have all i want in life. I wish everything goes perfectly as i want it. But then, i realised if all of these were to come true, then this is not life. Life was meant to be challenging. And it's only up to me to make my life a lot easier. I need to study hard to have everything i desire in life. God will only helps those who help themselves. So i better start studying now before everything is too late. Before all those dreams turns into a fantasy. I want to change. I want to make not only myself proud, but everyone else around me as well. I want my parents to be grateful to have me as their daughter. InsyaAllah. Amin.

My Eid Celebration

2010-09-13T15:07:00.006+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya dan Maaf Zahir Batin

To be honest, i don't think i enjoyed my raya as much as i did last year. Everyone keeps asking me about SPM, as if i don't realise that it's like a month away. And yes i already minus all the times i'll be playing and goofing around. I'm sorry that I'm not fully prepared for it yet.

Anyway, let's not ruin the perfect raya atmosphere by thinking about exams. HA HA.

I spent my 3rd day raya with my friends. Yeay for me because my parents, for once, actually let me spend my time with my friends. I gotta say, even though it was nothing like i expected it to be, it was still fun and i enjoyed my time. Not gonna lie.

So basically the friends i was talking about are Nadia, Nabila, Inani, Afifah, Syahir, Adib and Fariqzuan. Gosh, only now i realised how much i missed them. And also sorry to kawan-kawan yang lain sebab tak sempat nak pergi open house korang. If only i can drive on my own. Sigh.

And yes, i do realise that i suck at taking pictures. :P

Selamat Hari Raya

2010-09-09T18:22:00.003+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya dan Maaf Zahir Batin kepada semua teman-teman. Semoga Syawal kali ini lebih meriah berbanding yang tahun lepas. Rasa bersalah sebab tak menggunakan bulan Ramadhan sebaik-baiknya tahun ini. Entah next year sempat ke tak nak sambut Ramadhan dan Syawal. InsyaAllah. SPM pun macam dah dekat giler sekarang tapi obviously saya memang tak ready lagi. Maafkan saya eh papa, mama, cikgu-cikgu, kawan-kawan dan diri sendiri sebab tak ready lagi nak menempuh SPM. Serious tak ready langsung. Apepun, raya tetap kena raya, tak meriah pun tak per asalkan dapat duit raya. haha. XD Giler duit la minah nie. Lastly nak minta maaf kat semua kawan-kawan sebab banyak menyusahkan ker, ada buat salah ke, tersalah cakap and semua-semua tu la. Saya pun insan yang lemah, banyak buat kesilapan. Harap dimaafkan eh. :)

Just going random

2010-09-07T15:06:00.006+08:00

please read this in a British accent~!

haha. LOL. Just joking but i wouldn't mind if you do it anyway. This post is gonna be a little bit different from my previous posts because this post is likely going to be about one of the things i like most which is British accent. Huh weird enough right? I just love British accent. Guys with British accent are H.O.T, well at least to me. Let me name some for you okay?

1. Alex Pettyfer who plays the main role in Stormbreaker. This was actually one of my favourite British movie and i think he was the one who got me hook to this British accent. Rawr~!

2. Alex Watson who is Emma Watson's brother. Do i need to say more about this guy? One thing for sure is that he was born in 1993. OLLA. Hot model. :)

3. Colin Morgan who best known for playing the role Merlin. My all time favourite TV series. I like him. Full stop.

4. Bradley James widely known as Prince Arthur in TV series Merlin. Again, i love this British TV series. I wouldn't miss it for the world. When will season 3 be shown in Malaysia? :(

5. Mitch Hewer who plays Maxxie Oliver in Skins. Too bad he was only in Season 1 and 2 in skins. Skins is actually one of the best teen drama i have ever seen. I didn't finish watching all the series though but still it's the best. My sister was the one who recommended me this drama at first. HOT.

I guess five is enough? Oh yeah, Robert Pattinson. Hell yeah he's an English actor. Born and raised in London. Obviously almost everyone, if not all, knows him. He's the dude who plays Edward Cullen. DUH. Search for his name in youtube and listen to his British accent~! It's amazing. haha.

And why didn't i name anyone from Harry Potter? Easy. Because i don't watch Harry Potter. I prefer Chronicles of Narnia and yes, William Moseley and Skandar Keynes are two hot english actor with very awesome british accent. AWW.

There are probably some other British actors that i forgot to mention here but oh well, i'm a normal human being who has a short term memory. HAHA. No, seriously, i tend to forget things easily, even if it's important. But please let me remember my studies all the time. ngee~ ^____________^

WOW, i think by far this is the longest post i've ever made, right? I should stop. STOP.

Sorry for not being a nice friend

2010-09-02T22:42:00.003+08:00

Where to start, where to start. Ah, school today. Tak best sangat sebab teramatlah boring. haha. Anyway that's not the point. The point is saya tadi pergi berterus terang dgn kawan saya pasal attitude sy yang dia xsuka. I did most of the talking though. Tapi takper asal dia dengar apa yg sy nk cakap dah cukup. Tak nak paksa dia maafkan saya pun tapi just harap dia faham kalau sy xsuka kita bergaduh. Maybe saya ada buat dia kesal sebelum ni and maybe dari dulu sy bukan kawan yg baik. Tp still, sy taknak awk terus marahkan sy. Serius cakap, sy xsuka kita macam ni. Kita kan deskmate, xsyok la kalau saling xberteguran. Plus, kita dah kenal since form 1. Of course tak serapat teman2 lain tp awk tetap special. Sy nak awk tahu kalau sy betul2 nak minta maaf for all the things i've done, for hurting your feeling and for not being a friend you can always count on. Sy harap awk maafkan sy and again, i'm really sorry. Tak sure awk akn baca ke tak post nie tp sy xkisah sbb sy tetap nak minta maaf dgn awk walau apa cara sekalipun. Sy minta maaf. Sorry.

The half part of my life that i hate

2010-08-30T20:33:00.002+08:00

Sajer nak luahkan apa yang terkubur dalam hati ni. HAHA. Seriously saya tak pernah nak faham dan maybe tak akan faham kenapa mama selalu cakap macam tu. Saya bukan budak-budak lagi la. Dah naik bosan dengan alasan la. Kenapa tak pernah nak faham perasaan Rinee? Oh sebab Rinee tak pernah nak faham perasaan mama eh, macam tu? I'm 17. Pun ada perasaan jugak. Every time kalau tengok scene romantic dalam tv pun, kena tegur, apa tgk scene2 macam ni. HELLO! Dah 17 la. Bukannya budak umur 6 ke 7 tahun. GRRR. Bila nak buleh keluar ni? Selalu mintak permisson tak bagi, minta, tak bagi. Abis tu when i secretly keluar dgn kawan-kawan kena marah. Apa kes nie? Dah tak bagi sangat dia pulak nak marah-marah. Seriously tak suka. Bukan ke dulu pun pernah umur 17? Oh wait, peredaran masa tak sama. Dunia dah berubah. HAHA. Bosan hidup kat rumah. :(

A whole week of nerve-wracking moment

2010-08-26T20:01:00.006+08:00

Trial exam was freaking hard. Disastrous. Nerve-wracking. The questions might be a little bit TOO hard but the fact that everyone around me was calmly doing it just freaked the hell out of me. I looked at the paper. BLANK. Nothing was coming out from my mind. It was as if my brain was empty. ZERO.

I hate sitting next to these Albert Einstein's clones.

Seriously. They make me feel insecure. I was half choked to death by these extremely difficult questions, no lie. Ok maybe i did exaggerate a lil tiny bit but i still think I'm gonna get the lowest mark. I could somehow feel that physic was laughing at me for not knowing what to answer, for shaking the whole entire time. Don't even let me start with Chemistry and Additional Mathematics.

I practically have no chemistry with chemistry.

I have one last paper yet to answer. Biology. Ah, the only one subject that i have never get an A for this year. NICE. Sangat suka. haha. Note the sarcasm there, ok?

Well, i did my part by memorizing all the notes and doing some exercises so now it's only left to Him to decide. Tawakkal Rinee. Allah akan sentiasa menolong orang yang menolong dirinya sendiri. Kan? Amin. But i apologise if i did cheated in the exam.

Padah Tak Membaca

2010-08-20T20:25:00.002+08:00

Macam best jugak tulis blog ni dalam Bahasa Melayu kan. Asalnya memang nak tulis dalam bahasa mat salleh sebab takut makin lupa tapi apa kan daya, nafsu nak tulis dalam bahasa ibunda ni membuak-buak. haha. Ok. Geli sangat tulis cam tu. Anyway, Trial SPM minggu pertama dah lepas and konklusi yang dapat dibuat ialah, 'Papa, mama, Rinee dah tak tahu nak target A untuk subjek apa. Sedangkan BM, BI dan Sejarah pun susah'. Teruk kan. Aish. Dah dah kalu terus fikir cam ni buleh rosak otak tu, kata Pakar Saintis Rinee Reza. Minggu depan start semua subjek-subjek yang boleh buat saya pening. Fizik. Kimia. Additional Mathematics. Modern Mathematics. haha. Nahas sungguh. Apepun kena tetap percaya pada diri. Jia You. Fighting. Gambatte. Berusaha. Salam.

I know i love her.

2010-08-20T13:45:00.005+08:00

Macam lama gila tak tulis apa-apa kat dalam ni. haha. Maklum la sekarang dah ada facebook, oh yeah sy mmg kuno, jadi kawan-kawan semua contact kat sana. hoho. Tapi hari ni wajib wajib wajib update blog pasal ulang tahun kawan saya ni yang sangat sangat saya rindu dan sayang. Dah dua tahun tak boleh nak wish birthday dia face to face. Sedih. Tapi kau kat sana tuntut ilmu kan, tak kan la saya nak halang pulak. Anyway, kawan ni dah genap 17. Makin tua tapi tetap jer cantik. Awak tahu saya sayang awk kan? Dah 9 tahun kita kawan tapi rasa sekejap jer. Dah dah cukup tak nak mula jiwang sebab saya tak suka, karat.

Insan istimewa, Happy Birthday!

NIK NADIA NIK MOHAMED

Sorry, gambar dalam phone. Nanti akan di update ok.

UNTITLED.

2010-08-05T22:42:00.003+08:00

One short quote from Thomas A.Edison that has a really deep meaning, and every time i feel like giving up, i always think about this quote as it gives me back my confidence in everything i do. THANKS!

"Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up."

~ Thomas A. Edison

My sister just discovered that i have a blog! OMG!

2010-07-31T20:33:00.004+08:00

If he can't be my special someone, can he at least be my brother or my close friend? Or is this too much to ask?

oh oh oh, semalam nampak pulak prefect tu jln pergi sekolah. Sangat macho la kamu. :)

God decides what's best for my life!

2010-07-31T13:51:00.005+08:00

It's been a while since i updated my blog. Seriously i have no idea what to write here. And plus i don't think i have any readers, right? :P Anyway, SPM trial is so freaking close now. Only 16 days to go. How am i supposed to memorise all the notes now? HUH? I'm dooom! Oh yeah, not trying to be emo or anything now but i think my dad was right about something. He once told me that i should befriended everyone but never regard any of them as my best because there will be one day when your best become your worst. Well, you know what papa, I think i should have listen to you long ago because if i did, i wouldn't be this heartbroken when my best hurt me. Pa, I love you. OK STOP IT RINEE! Oh and one more thing, yesterday i hangout with Hanie and Ilham! I had a wonderful day, not sure about them though. haha. :D

National Service, WHAT?

2010-07-15T22:57:00.003+08:00

The one thing i hate most about today is the listing for PLKN - National Service. WTF! like seriously. Why was i chosen out of all the people here in my state? And out of my best buddies, only two were chosen, Me and Nina. Oh yeah thanks a lot! Kalau ye pun, biar lah semua buleh pergi, baru adil! TAK NAK PERGI~

i love you babe.

2010-07-11T18:14:00.003+08:00

NAJWA AZRIN

happy belated birthday. sorry sgt2 sbb ak wish lambat tau. tp ak syg kau sgt2. kita kawan sampai ke anak cucu eh. pastu anak cucu kita kene saling mengenali tau. ok ok? :D

What should the title be?

2010-07-10T10:34:00.009+08:00

Everyone wants to support the winning team,
so if you want the world to support you, be a winner.

Mimi, Ina, Fifah, Ya, Mira, Wina, Tantan, Nina, Awa, Gee, Mirashi, Hanie, - Let's ace our SPM so we can stand on the mountain top and show our values to this world. I love you girls damn much. Do it once, do it right. Thanks to everyone who has given me all kinds of advice. :D

Let me go and i'll love you for eternity

2010-07-08T22:32:00.003+08:00

"As long as I am in the clear with God, my family and my fans, it is sufficient for me" - JAY PARK

See, how can i not like this guy? He was born to be perfect. He's like a cute delicious yummy ice-cream and i LOVE ice-cream. I have a hell awesome good news that is DOOM DOOM BANG BOOM Jay is coming to Malaysia in September but the date is not yet confirmed. We'll be celebrating Raya in September right? Papa, for once, please let me go? Pretty please with cherry on top! I already called Tokwan minutes ago regarding this news and she was as excited as i was too, or probably less. If it's Raya then obviously it's gonna be holiday, which means no school, right? PAPA PLEASE! Nak pergi! Nak pergi! Sape nak bawak sy? :(

Yupe. I'm struggling.

2010-07-06T20:12:00.004+08:00

The thought of SPM is only 4 months away from now is slowly killing me inside. And oh yeah, that 4 months includes holidays, wasting my time using the internet, watching tv, playing around, daydreaming, watching Khun on WGM, sleeping, chatting with friends, KPOP, gazing at Jay's picture and all sorts of stuff. So basically if i exclude all those activities, it will actually be 2 months away from now. HELL. Girls, put your seat belt on because the ride ain't gonna be easy from now.

Papa's favourite nasihat untuk sy :
"What you do today is what you're gonna be tomorrow"

Just movies, no time for books. LOL

2010-07-03T13:35:00.005+08:00

I was watching Angus, Thongs and Perfect Snogging in HBO and i thought to myself 'i got to blog about this movie' because the story-line was just perfect. The casts was superb - good looking main actors and actress. Eye candy fo sho! But the thing that doubled up my joy when i was watching this movie was the accent, THE British accent. I have always love British accent. I love this movie so much that i even watch it again in youtube, oh yeah baby, addicted. Robbie is so freaking hot! and the band, Stiff Dylans, was just amazing. The snogs were yummy! haha. I recommend this movie to everyone who read this. YEAH! Trust me, you guys won't regret it. And btw, found a picture of Jay filming the Hype Nation movie. Hot as ever. Sayang kamu.

Introducing my lovers :D

2010-07-01T16:36:00.014+08:00

first post of the month : introducing my lovers.

i have no mood to blog lately, probably because i don't know what to write and my time is kinda limited now. I have restricted myself from using the internet because i don't want to be regretting it later on. You know what i mean right? But still, the temptation of using it is surprisingly hard to control. Rinee, you can do it. Anyway, i am freaking bored now so i might as well list down my top ten favourite guys. Some of them might not be in the correct order and trust me this list is not 100% reliable since i love to change my top ten favourite guys. haha. No matter what, Jay and Khun will always be at the top of the list since i have no reasons to not like them. So, here goes:

1. Park Jaebeom - Jay Park2. Nichkhun Buck Horjevkul3. Lee Changsun - Lee Joon4.Lee SeungHyun - Seungri5. Ryan 'Ryanimay' Conferido6. Kwon Ji Yong - GDragon7. Choi Seung Hyun - TOP8. Jung Jinwoon - Jinwoon9. Kim Hee Chul - Hee Chul10. Jang Geun Suk

WOW, my top ten favourite guys list is dominated by K-idols. haha. LOL. Anyway, hope you girls won't mind to drop a comment about your top ten favourite guys as well. :D

.Jersi tujuhku.

2010-06-25T23:54:00.005+08:00

Mlm ni baru ak fhm naper semua org cam giler jer tgk World Cup tu. hehe. Tadi perlawanan yg giler sengit la antara Portugal ngan Brazil. Mmg tadi kaw kaw la ak sokong Portugal sbb CR tersgt la macho dan hot. haha. Kire ak tgk tu sbb nk tgk die je lah, tambah pulak si cameraman tu yg ak confirm perempuan sbb asyik2 tunjuk Ronaldo, lepas tu Ronaldo pulak. Tido malam ni confirm nyenyak sbb ye lah, tadi right after abis game, Ronaldo cabut baju and jalan shirtless cam tu. Cameraman yg ak duk agk2 perempuan tu apa lagi, zoom Ronaldo terus! bulat mata2 tgk tau. Tak pe, tak nampak pusat, so xdosa kan? huhu. Ronaldo bg ak antara permain bola terhot la (mcm la ramai sgt yg ak kenal, oh Honda oh Abe Gee). Tgk dia jatuh pun ak buleh ckp "owh, mama tgk CR jatuh tadi? Macho molek caro dio jatuh". Oh yes! Tepat sekali. Tapi syg, Kaka xder so Brazil pun sama kosong dgn Portugal. hehehe. Amacam korang, hubby sy sgt hot kan mlm nie? :D

It was 11.08PM when i wrote this

2010-06-24T22:08:00.009+08:00

sorry, can't come up with a better title. =_=;;

Got my full exam result and i guess it's a bit disappointing. Not gonna talk much about it since i never liked talking, or writing, about my exam results. I'll try harder next time, hopefully. But anyway, 24th June 2010, Happy Birthday Nichkhun! sayang mesti terharu kan? It's heartbroken knowing that he'll be getting married to Victoria, even if it's scripted. haha. LOL. I think i should restrict myself from using the computer now since SPM is gonna be welcoming me soon, which means i'm not gonna update my blog often. haha so, try not to miss me eh. jk jk. LOL.

Happy Birthday Thai Prince a.k.a My 2nd Angel
because my first will always be Jay!

This is much better than FIFA World Cup

2010-06-18T18:14:00.006+08:00

Fangirl alert!

I'm not gonna write much because obviously no words can describe the happiness i am feeling right now. For once i feel like I'm on top of the world and it's all thanks to the hottest idol I've ever laid my eyes on, Jay Park. He's back in Korea. Kocham ciebie! It's i love you in Polish.

And i have my full respect to the fellow Korean Jaywalkers for waiting long hours at the Incheon airport. God bless all Jaywalkers!

This is much better than Fifa World Cup.

I'm a JAYWALKER!

2010-06-17T18:44:00.005+08:00

Fangirl alert!

After 9 months of waiting, Jay is officially coming back to Korea. This time, he's not coming back as the leader of 2PM but as Jay Park, the main actor for Hype Nation - a movie that will start its shooting on the 21st June in Korea. I'm glad i made the right choice to keep on supporting him despite all the criticisms that was thrown at him back in 2009. He's now stronger than ever and i believe his career will go nowhere but up. I love Jay. and Khun.

The Most Extreme

2010-06-15T19:49:00.003+08:00

SPM

Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia
am i fully ready for it?
aku sekarang gila takut.

Happy Birthday, Sara.

2010-06-11T16:53:00.006+08:00

11th June 2010

Happy Birthday Sara Jasmine,

I love you cousin!
Picture taken in Turkmenistan.

p/s : I bet you guys are wondering where Turkmenistan is, right?

Menjadi diriku

2010-06-11T15:15:00.003+08:00

Props to Ina Hishamuddin for introducing me to this song.
Usually i'm not into this kinda song but yeah,
I'm addicted to it by now.
I love you, sayang. =]

Menjadi diriku, it's the only thing I'm good at.

ABRSM exam : Part 2

2010-06-10T18:55:00.004+08:00

TOTAL DISASTER!

Messed up, wrong keys, nervous. AH! Disastrous. Everything went totally wrong. Again, for the third time, i think I'm gonna get a low mark, like really really low. And i thought i was gonna be at least ten times better than the past. Well, better luck next time, if there's gonna be a next time. Oh yeah, this time the examiner is a woman. A British woman with her British accent. I love British accent! :D

Two Different Tears

2010-06-09T13:32:00.003+08:00

HEARTBROKEN

It should have been forever

ABRSM exam

2010-06-05T16:36:00.006+08:00

Everyone please wish me luck for this upcoming piano practical exam. I need all the lucks i can get, seriously. I'm freaking scared and nervous. I need probably around 100 marks to pass and for the past two years I've been getting around 102-105. You have no idea how embarrassing it is! Hopefully i can do better this year in front of the scary British's guy who judge me. LOL. To recall back my memory about the two men who had to judge me, the first one was quite okay. I mean he didn't have this scary looking look at all but the second one creeps me out. He didn't even smile. And i messed up a lot in front of him, which didn't make it any better. So yeah, let's hope i won't flunk out again this year. Anyway, happy holiday to everyone. To my dearest Ina and Hanie, have a nice week at HUSM ok? :D Whoever wish me good luck will get a free hug in return, how's that? :P

It is endless and priceless

2010-06-03T18:44:00.006+08:00

I believe angels do exist,

but since not all of them have wings,
I call them parents, friends and family.

Please take note that I'll forever love you guys even when I'm mad at you or lie to you. Despite all the emotions i used to feel towards you, I still love you. The world I'm living in, if it's not for you, then i wouldn't know the true meaning of love and friendship. I make mistakes as time passes, but never have i regret it because i have you to show me the right path. Certain times, i do felt neglected, ignored and disregarded but the wrong doings i have done was kept a secret by you. You wanted to protect me from any harm, because you said we are friends. Sometimes i question myself, what does friends really mean? Then i made myself believe that friends mean you. I want my life to revolve around you, simply because my world is a better place because of you. If any of my words have hurt your feeling, purposely or not, please forgive me because i want us to be together for eternity.

INA, YA, FIFAH, MIRA,
MIMI, NINA, INTAN, AWA,
WINA, GEE, HANIE.

Yes, i do love you.

2010-05-31T16:51:00.008+08:00

Happy Birthday Dear Shasha! :D

I love you sis. Really really miss you right now. Thanks so much for the motivational words you said to me last night. It helps a lot. Still, i didn't do well in my Chemistry, but i tried. Anyhow, you helped me a lot. Thanks a billion! Happy birthday and may God grants all your wishes. :D Finally you're a year older. Don't complain about being 19 because I'll be experiencing it too. :P May the sisterly love between us remain forever and I'm awaiting your return in July. :D God has chosen her to be my sister because He knows, she's the best.

and oh yeah, i know she looks a lot younger than me but still, there's no need to remind me about it. I've been told millions of time. It hurts. I'm the younger one! ME! ME!~ *sobs*

Exam memang susah :P

2010-05-26T15:07:00.004+08:00

Doktor-doktor sekalian,
kenapa ambil dietary pills yg b'lebihan boleh menyebabkan maut?
Saya tak tahu. Bio saya hancur, itu yang confirm.
Yang penting, jauhi fail. Amin :D

updated
pehal islamic studies tadi susah sgt soalan eh?
Gila pecah kepala fikir jawapan tapi akhirnya
tetap guna talian rumah sebelah. haha :D

btw, Cik Intan, awk cute sgt dlm gambar nie! :)

Oh My buku The Pearl aku berhabuk!

2010-05-22T20:54:00.004+08:00

Pehal aku ni cam tak exam jer, relaks dengan selambanya bukak blog sbb nak update something. haha. Gile ke ape eh? Abis tu berangan nak sambung study sini la, sana la tapi hakikatnya, study tak pun kan? ish3. Anyway, nak pergi baca the pearl la ni but before that nak kongsi satu cerita pasal budak nie. haha. ok. tak lawak. :P

A : Eh, you cut you hair ah?
B : Yeah *shy shy*
A : Owh, cantik oh~
B : *blushing tak terkata*
A : When did you cut your hair?
B : Err two days ago
A : Ohh

Haha. ok. Tak de faedah lagi membuang masa kan? haha. Ok seperti yang di janjikan saya akan pergi baca The Pearl. Adios amigos. Hopefully i can get an A in my english paper. Amin. =]

Cut my hair short but i like it

2010-05-20T22:58:00.007+08:00

after a while xupdate blog, saya sudah kembali lagi dengan isu terkini. aha, bunyi cam pembaca berita yang xmenjadi jer nie. Apepun never mind because i'm not here to talk or write about that. Ok, hari ini, 20/05/10, saya dengan officialnya telah ke salon setelah beberapa lama tidak menjejakkan kaki ke sana kerana ingin memotong rambut. wait, tak ke pelik ayat tu? i cut my hair short today and i love it because seriously Malaysia is getting hotter nowadays, do you guys realised it? But nah i don't wanna talk about the weather. Back to the salon part, ok the hair dresser who cut my hair was super duper cute. And yeah he's a guy, a cute one! I've seen him before because i used to go the salon but tonight he was 10 times cuter than before and he changed his hair style! The latest one looks seriously good on him. He dyed his hair black and purple. It's pretty awesome, really. He smells good too. aha. ok. gedik. If i were to compare Mr. K and him, surely i'll end up having a bad head ache. haha. ok ok wow, what am i thinking? STOPPP! oh btw, the salon also gives me a special black Loreal Bag for no absolute reasons! But i think it's because my mum, my sis and myself always go there to do our hair. No doubt it's the best salon in the world! haha. i'll upload pics soon when i feel like snapping. keke. ^^ Adios! =]

updated!
compliments and constructive criticisms are most welcomed~

Oh La La

2010-05-15T20:20:00.003+08:00

ok ok seriously dreams do come true. Oh tidak, dream ini tiada kaitannya dengan akademik, kalau gedik tu adalah. haha. Jangan banyak tanya la dream pasal apa sebab korang tak kan buleh agak punye. Tak sabar nak ke sekolah esok! Oh btw, cik intan guess who i saw at the airport this evening. Memang tak boleh nak agak punye. Hint dia, rambut terpacak, baju purple. Yang penting saya tengok dia macam ternampak hantu. haha. Sebab mata and muka expression saya cam errr "dio ni". haha. Tapi apepun, starting from today i have more reasons to look forward to every Saturday. aww aww. =]

pi es : kepada sesiapa yang dapat teka apa2 kaitan yg kat ats sana, please duduk and zip mulut anda. THANKS!

Mama, Rinee sayang mama!

2010-05-09T18:47:00.001+08:00

Mama,
Happy Mother's Day!
Selamat Hari Ibu!
Kaulah ratu hati ku =]

Entah title apa yang sesuai eh?

2010-05-08T20:33:00.007+08:00

Wah gile best aku belajar guitar ari ni ngan cikgu baru. Dia ganti jer sebab my original teacher sakit so tak boleh nak datang. Memang terlalu lah lambat baru nak belajar guitar tp my piano teacher cakap tak pe sbb dah tahu main piano so guitar will be easier, so hopefully apa yang my piano teacher cakap tu betul la. Dah dua bulan aku main guitar tetap aje book one. haha. Apepun aku suka la teacher ganti tu. Nama dia Mr K. Secret tak leh cakap, risau2 takut ade yang kenal nanti tak pasal2 kelentong aku suka dia. haha. Aku rasa maybe dia around 20's sebab nampak masih muda la. Tali guitar aku putus tadi so main guna guitar dia, wah memang bahagia! haha. Dia tanya kenapa boleh putus then aku jawab jer tak tahu. haha. Aku pun xsure macam mana boleh putus sebab aku tak practise pun. aiyoo guitar aku saja nak boikot la tu. Dia pakai baju hijau dgn seluar pendek hitam, dia tu putih melepak so ak yg tgk ni mmg gila abis tersenyum. haha. First tu dia tanya aku "Girl, you're Rinee right?" and aku cam terkedu ah sebab bukan muka je macho tapi suara pun mengalahkan penyanyi terbaik dunia! Aku dengan selamba rock nak control ni pun jawab jer "yeah" sambil senyum2 malu. haha. Kelakar la. Aku suka la belajar ngan dia. Aku suka bila ak cam letih tangan pastu dia pun bagi kata2 pembakar semangat la. Wah, aku ape lagi, hilang terus keletihan. Dia pun senyum. Untung gf dia buleh laki yang handsome, dah tu main guitar best gilerr! Banyak gila nak crita tp malu ah kalau luah semua kat sini. Nanti kan tak pasal2 cerita aku wat jadi movie dalam tv. Aha, bajet ramai yang bace la nie. =] Apepun, ak doa2 next week dia lagi yang ajar tapi tetap aku harap cikgu original aku cepat sihat then ubah fikiran tak nak ajar aku sebab waktu maghrib so buleh la cikgu ganti tu ajar aku sampai aku pandai. hehe. Memang doa yang tak baik so kalau ada adik2 yang bace, jgn tiru aksi ini yerr. haha. =]

Am i losing my sanity?

2010-05-07T00:49:00.003+08:00

Dear Diary,

I think i might go crazy. All i've been doing is updating my blog about him. Yea it sounds crazy enough to me. I need to do something to keep me busy so that i won't remember anything about him. Adamaya. Adamaya. Yea as if this will work. Or maybe i should spend more time memorizing my sejarah notes because exam is gonna be welcoming me soon. But then again, studying is not my cup of tea but i promise i'll study hard for my future - it's not like i have any choice or anything. Serious talk, i really wish your shadow could just disappear from my thoughts. The thought of you is making me lose my sanity and even sometimes i wonder how you do it. It's really unfortunate to me that God has given you this special power to make my heart melt so easily. The worst part is, you don't even know it, let alone noticing it. It's funny how sometimes i think of you and wonder if you ever think of me. But someone once told me that if God doesn't give you want you want, then it's not what you need. I guess i don't need him then?

Dinding yang semakin roboh

2010-05-05T20:50:00.004+08:00

Gila. Gila. Gila. Aku boleh jadi gila kalau tengok dia terus. Nasib baik game dah abis, kalau tak memang aku asyik mimpi pasal dia la. Kau tu pun satu, yang baik sangat tu kenapa? Yang kau layan aku tu kenapa? Tak nak ah macam nie. Tak nak gila kat kau! Takkan la perasaan tu datang balik kot? Aku ni pun satu. Yang aku ni lemah sangat kenapa? Oh perasaan gila yang melompat2 nak masuk balik dalam badan jiwa raga hati aku, sila lari jauh2 ye sebab aku tak perlukan kau menyemak dalam diri ini. hehe. Hati ni pun satu hal jugak. Lain kali dinding penghalang tu bina la kuat2 sikit supaya perasaan yang datang balik tu tak boleh nak masuk, tak boleh nak roboh, ok?

Gila. Kenapa ada perasaan ni?

2010-05-04T20:44:00.002+08:00

Tak nak! Kenapa aku suka tengok dia senyum?

My future is not miles away, it's in front of me

2010-05-04T20:28:00.006+08:00

Can someone tell me what my future will be like? Because right now i have no clue what i'm doing. I feel like as if i'm breaking down slowly, real slow. I don't know what i wanna do. Everything seems so hard to me. My parents are telling me to take medicine course and of course to be in that course you need to have super gila terbaik excellent grades so that i can go and study in Poland, together with my sister. You see, that's the problem. I don't know if i can do it or not. I wanna go there, yeah, i mean who doesn't right? But anyway, i don't wanna think about this for now. It's tiring my mind.

Because he belongs to someone else

2010-05-03T20:04:00.004+08:00

It took me quite a time to actually forget about you and i thought i was over you but now having to see you again, i think the feeling is crawling back inside of me. I don't want this to happen. Yea, i hate this feeling because i know it will never come true. Why do you have to be YOU! i mean seriously if you pretend to be someone else or maybe a jerk, then i wouldn't easily fall for you. Your smile, voice, smell and basically everything about you is mesmerizing. When you act like a dork and make tons of jokes, it makes me realize that i still have feeling for you. But sokay and don't worry, this feeling won't stay for long. I'll make it vanish soon. Hopefully. We weren't meant for each other. Because you belong to someone else.

And the brightest star shines again.

2010-04-29T21:02:00.002+08:00

RINEE.
eh, RINEE.

Kau buatku tersenyum! =]

sero po nok kecek klate weh!

2010-04-27T19:56:00.005+08:00

haha. molek bena la tu. kawe sero po nok kecek kelate ni keh nyo kawe ni ore kelate tapi gak nilai2 cinta ko kelate ni tok banyok dale diri. nok wak gano biar ado eh? tak po lah hok tu tok penting mano deh? hok penting so malaysia. ko guano boh? benar nyo kawe nok cito pasal so laki ni. ho la bakpo la demo tu semat sangat nyo? tergugat hati kawe kelih. bo2 la jadi semat nyo. tok lamo kawe buleh pese kalu kelih muko demo hok semat tu sokmo. ni keh parok la kalu g ICU pun tok jadi kiro. Tapi gak hor lah po skalo la laki semat gak rama nok deh? Tok lamo buleh gilo baye kelih ko dio sokmo. Ngigau pagi pete baru tau, tu tok campur male2 lagi. Sleep walking nah benar kalu tingat dio skmo. Tok se la jadi gitu. Namo ke pakat usung gi ata tingkat 5 USM. Parok2. Pah nok wat gano ni kalu de kene dooh gak? Saloh ko mok ayoh dio deh wat tubik DNA ko anok hok molek2. Apo nok jadi nih. Gilo apo la nok g depe dio oyk "demo,demo benarnyo ke kawe minat demo". Tok leh tok leh. Zame moden pun hati kawe tetap retro agi. Tok maen la ladies first ni. Nawok apah jah tu. kahkahkah. Aww, malu weh sero nulih hok tok berapo nok jadi nie. Harap maaf la awe-awe nga mek-mek deh. =]

250410 I LOVE HIM!

2010-04-24T19:00:00.004+08:00

25/04/2010
Happy Birthday Mr. Jay Park!

Hell yeah i'm making a special update dedicating to my one and only love, JAY! I'm sure there's like 80% of chances that my friends will make fun of me because of this post but still friends, all i can say is i don't care. I love this guy way too much to just ignore his birthday and do absolute nothing about it. That's why i decided to have a special post for him on his birthday! YUPE IT'S TODAY! Jay baby, you're 23 now! I LOVE YOU.

My heart is fragile

2010-04-23T22:47:00.003+08:00

Liking him is a sin!

Hati sila berhenti bermain dengan aku. Hentikan semua bunga2 yang berkembang tu. Dah, dah. Aku dah tak boleh terus tersenyum setiap kali nampak dia. Memang sah tak boleh. Satu kewajipan untuk aku berhenti menyukai dia. He's not yours. One sided love is not wonderful, it will one day hurt you badly, real bad. Jadi, sebelum terlambat, baik aku berhenti sukakan dia. Kau dengar tak hati? For once listen to what your mind is trying to say dan berhenti menyukai dia. Dah cukup senyuman murah yang kau lemparkan setiap kali nampak dia gembira.

Love & Respect

2010-04-22T20:16:00.003+08:00

I've decided to appreciate my life better. To do things i love doing instead of listening to others and do as they said. I live my own life. My life is surrounded by the most wonderful people but yet i still ask myself sometimes, why is my life so miserable? When i thought about it again, i realised, my life is not miserable at all. There are other people in this world who suffers more that i could ever imagine, so maybe I should really think of those unfortunate people every time when i feel hurt or feel like ending my life. Those people who keeps standing strong even when others are trying to pull them down. YES! I need to appreciate my life better. I should learn from them. Stop criticizing and start appreciating more. =] Love and Respect!

Aku paling bodoh kan?

2010-04-21T19:37:00.003+08:00

Aku memang bodoh. Bodoh sebab buat benda bodoh. Hidup aku ibarat dalam kotak. Aku dah tak tahan. Semua orang aku nampak gembira, kenapa aku sengsara je terus? Cabaran apa, dugaan apa? GILA! Aku dah tak tahan. Kepada siapa aku nak luahkan? Patut ke aku hentikan je hidup ni? Kan senang, at least mereka dah tak perlu nak layan perangai bodoh aku ni. Aku bodoh. Semua hal bodoh je terus! Kan senang kalau aku takde, at least dah takde sape2 nak sakitkan hati diorang.

Am I Doing The Right Decision?

2010-04-19T20:13:00.002+08:00

3-6 MEI 2010
Apa yang aku fikir ni?
Rinee, kenapa masih belum sedar lagi?

Saya Nak Menang!

2010-04-17T19:27:00.004+08:00

BINTANG YANG SENTIASA BERKELIP!

Dia senyum. WOW. Teringat dulu2 masa muda pernah suka kat dia. Tapi tu dulu la, sekarang dah tak suka lagi. keke. But he still remember me! That's the good part. Bangga la sgt2 ada kawan macam dia. Xrapat itu memang la tp asal kawan sudah. Yupe, aku lawan lusa bak kata dia la. Abis cakap senyum terus. Tadi memang gila abis aku lawan. Terlalu LAH teruk sampai semua pun tanya kenapa. Ye lah, tak training macam mana nak baek kan? Apepun memang menang nipis jer. Esok entah siapa aku jumpa, kalau menang mungkin jumpa sama ada my geng Afifah atau wakil sekolah jiran, Nabihah. Aku sekarang hati berdebar2, perut rasa macam ada rama2 jer, ehem2 bak kata orang putih 'Butterflies in my stomach'! Ah, yang tu lah. Kenapa rasa cam tu eh? Ah, ni confirm sebab aku takut nak lawan esok. Maybe jumpa chinese la. Apepun, sila doakan kemenangan saya yer. hehe =]

Novel oh Novel

2010-04-13T19:35:00.003+08:00

Biarlah YM Berbicara!

This is the first Malay novel i read! WOW! PROUD! ^^ Superb abis novel nie. Aumm. Thanks so much to my dearest Khadijah and Nina for talking about this novel in class. If it weren't for you girls, saya mmg xkan tahu kewujudan novel ini. kehkehkeh. Charming aka Encik Firdaus mmg hot stuff la. Imaginasi saya tentang dia mmg FUHH LAM MAKK handsome xterkata. I love spazzing about this novel with my friends in class. But one thing i don't really like about this novel is terlalu lah KARAT! Tapi apepun Gee kata novel ni xrealistik. Ek eleh, relaks la gee, nama pun novel mmg la xrealistik. Tulisan jer kan bukannye ade gambar yang moving ke ape. Oh Mr.Charming bila saya boleh jumpa orang cam awk eh? Eh lupa, dah jumpa la. MY JAY PARK! oh yeah, he's perfect in all kinds of way. =]

Awak Bintang Saya

2010-04-10T20:19:00.005+08:00

Bintang, saya nak suka awak boleh? Sebab saya suka tengok awak berkelip. Terlalu cantik dan mempersonakan. Tapi, bila kita boleh jadi rapat? Awak jauh sangat dengan saya tapi saya tetap suka awak. Awak tak nampak saya. Awak hanya nampak bintang lain, bulan dan matahari je. Saya tak special bagi awak tapi bagi saya awak tu bintang paling cantik. Suka sangat kalau buleh tengok awak. Jadi, walaupun secara senyap, saya tetap nak suka awak. =]

My blood type is B

2010-04-09T14:35:00.004+08:00

050410

I donated my blood the other day. It was quite frightening at first because the needle was really huge but it's ok because gee was sitting next to me. I wanted to hold her hands but malu la nati gpo pulok gee oyk. hehe. I didn't weight myself before all the donating begins because obviously i know i weight more than 50 kilos. LOL. The first injection didn't hurt actually. Ok maybe sakit la sikit tp xdop la sapa nepik po keno histeria. kahkah. It felt really good to do a good deed. Yes, donating blood is something we all should do. Please semua sambutlah seruan Rinee untuk kita sama2 donate blood kepada yang memerlukan, ok? And Gee, thanks sbb donate blood nga sayo. Kito mmg sek daroh B hk paling cute la. Oh yeah, Nina sie ko mu xleh nk derma darah. Xpo2 wat pekat dulu deh. And awa, can't wait until you're 17 so we all can donate blood together.