expressing anger in words

Hello blogger babes and dudes.


I know it has been a while since the last time i posted anything in here. I've been busy doing....err well doing nothing. But who cares, right ?


Maaf, post ini hanya sekadar luahan hati and also a way i express my frustration of what had happened today. seriously right now all i feel like doing is stabbing someone on the chest and bury them half-alive. cruel, i know.


i had to wait for two fucking hours. oh am sorry for my language, please ignore it for now. it's ridiculous i tell you, the most ridiculous thing i had to go through. the only bright side at that exact moment was thank god i had my phone with me. at least i can online !


giler rasa nak menyumpah menyampah nak muntah. nasib baik ada pakcik chinese ni yang baik dengan aku. dia asyik duk cakap 'adik i think you should go inside and ask them' and so on. He was really nice, no doubt. all my respect goes to him.


and to top it off, last skali diorang cakap, adik datang esok boleh ? IM LIKE DUDE ASAL TAK CAKAP DARI TADI LAGI ? BUANG MASA LA. huhhhhh. sabar rinee. and my response was oh esok ? yea sure okay. and i smiled, almost on the verge of crying. see i was being nice, im telling you, NICE ! and you treated me like crap. i didn't even complain about it to other people. i sat there quietly. oh gosh.



sabar rinee. this is one of His way to test your patience. sabar, mashaAllah. dengar lagu ini lah. suka lagu ni sangat-sangat. the meaning of this fuhhh memang deep. khas untuk awak.


also had an x-ray scan or whatever you called it today. i thought the x-ray thingy was gonna take like at least 15 minutes, but heck nooo, it was only a second ! like seriously, so freaking fast. HELLO TECHNOLOGY !

P/S : i had an x-ray today and they found you in my heart ! ♥

Persahabatan antara kawan.

Emo nya title. tsk tsk. sobs.

Peringatan : Kalau kau tak jiwang, kau jangan baca.


I knew that one day, whether i like it or not, the time will come for us to depart and i have to live my life with the absence of you in my sight. We all have chosen different routes, the route that will take us a step closer in fulfilling our dreams. We may be out of sight, we may be living miles away from each other but one thing i can promise you is that, you'll never leave my heart.

gambar ni sengaja di uploadkan sebab tengah marah kat dua orang ni
okay marah manja-manja, and diorang hanya kawan yer.

Thanks for all the memories we have created together. Soon when we're apart, at least i know that i have something i can cherish on everyday. Because we're so close to each other, because we share every details about each other, bidding farewell is the hardest thing to do.

Bila hampir tiap-tiap hari aku dengar suara kau, bila hampir tiap-tiap hari kita gossip, bila kau cakap kau rindu aku, bila hampir setiap kali kita end conversation kita pasti cakap i love you, bila kau forward balik mesej jiwang-jiwang yang aku hantar kat kau, bila kita kongsi segala masalah kita, bila kau call aku dulu cakap kau takut nak exam spm, bila kita nangis sama-sama, bila kita gelak sama-sama, bila kat sekolah kita pergi toilet berteman sampai 3-4 orang, bila cikgu boring dalam kelas aku kacau kau yang tengah khusyuk belajar, bila kita lepak kat sekolah sampat petang, bila kau makan jeruk dalam kelas then aku tolong cover dan giler banyak kenangan dengan kawan-kawan. If i were to write them all down, dang man, i probably need to stay awake for a whole year.

I love the similarities we have, because it makes us close, but the differences between us makes us even closer. Either way, we make a perfect combination. We breath the same air, live on the same land, pray to the same God, even those simple reasons make me love you even more. You guys seriously bring out the best in me. I love the friendship we have.

May Allah bless our friendship forever.

Never say goodbye, because goodbye means going away, and going away means forgetting. Dan aku tak nak kita lupa persahabatan ini, sebab bagi aku persahabatan ni terlalu berharga.


Emo nya minah ni malam-malam. K Bye.

Random Rinee

For the past few days, i have been listening to this song quite a lot of times and i don't even have any ideas why i keep listening to it. Probably because it's addictive, or perhaps the lyrics are meaningful to me ? 'The scars are gonna heal, but they're never gonna go away'.

This is gonna be a little bit out of the blue but if someone has ever hurt you whether it's physically or mentally, just forgive and forget. Never revenge and regret because revenge is never a way to solve problems. Let them deal with God in the afterlife. Let Him do the punishing, not you.


Yeah i can be random at times especially when i am terribly boring. So pardon me. And to that star i saw the other night, i love the way you shine brighter than the others. You light up my days and nights, and i miss you, a lot.




I'm 18 this year and it's never too old to listen to nursery rhymes. I miss my childhood memories, they helped shape me into the person i am today. :')

Cerita semalam, 2 Mei 2011.

ini sebenar cerita semalam, memang nak tulis semalam, tapi semalam letih and mood tak datang nak update blog. Ini cerita pasal kawan punya hari istimewa.





Sebelum tu, tahniah, Nur Inani Hishamuddin kerana telah genap lapan belas tahun. Aku dah tempah club khas untuk kau dan aku. HAHA. Semalam kitorang celebrate birthday awek cun ni lah, sepatutnya hari ini, tapi entah kenapa melayan kesibukan masing-masing terpaksa lah kitorang buat awal. A day earlier.

gambar with no motif whatsoever.

Sambut dekat kbmall jer. Giler punya idea main tepung dekat tangga 9. In case korang tak tahu, tangga 9 tu dekat tingkat atas sekali, yer tempat parking kereta. Pakcik guard, minta maaf yer kerana terpaksa bersihkan kotoran tepung yang kitorang guna. Bukan niatku untuk menambahkan kerja pakcik guard. Semua kena tepung, semua padan muka. Cun giler bila tengok semua rambut dah dye warna putih. Ada sorang dua kena icing biru, maaf yer. Tak sengaja. okay tipu, sengaja lahh ! haha.

gambar with no motif whatsoever dua.

Then, kitorang pun pergi ke medan selera dekat stadium sebab nak makan lebihan kek biru tu. Sorry lambat datang. Later petang tu, pergi main bowling dekat billion. Yang ni aku tak sempat nak join. Dah janji nak balik pukul 4 tepat. Sorry, johan longkang tak sempat nak join.


Tapi apapun, semalam memang hari yang paling indah dalam sejarah hidup aku. Mungkin ini last kitorang bergurau senda macam ni. Mungkin ini last kitorang berkumpul ramai-ramai. Nanti lepas ni, kitorang dah nak pergi hala tuju masing-masing. Pergi matrik, pergi universiti, form 6. Apapun choice korang, bila dah buat kawan baru tu, jangan lupa kawan lama. Emo nya minah ni.


Terima kasih untuk semalam. Serious aku sayang korang.


Awek-awek cun dan jejaka-jejaka kacak yang terlibat : Nadia, Afifah, Milin, Inani, Syahir, Shafiq, Shahrul, Syahmi. Eh baru perasan yang jejaka semua S. Serious sayang korang. dan awak.





pi es : sila terharu lah korang. sebab nak tulis blog post ni, aku sampai sanggup tak tengok Glee oh Puck kacak auww iloveyou. takper, takper, astro suka buat ulangan.

Laman Sosial, Twitter.

Flashback : Hari tu minah jakun ni terasa nak buat twitter. Jay Park cakap, follow my twitter, it's the easiest way to stalk me. auww kan? Minah jakun ni pulak dah tergila-gilakan Jay tu, apa lagi, buat twitter lah. Tahniah.


Oke oke. Nak cerita pasal twitter. Hari tu kan kan, aku tengok tv series British kat Nickelodeon (jangan kutuk Nickelodeon yer babes dudes. You are never too old for cartoons). Tajuk cerita tuh House of Anubis tapi ni bukan lah cerita cartoon pun, cerita ni pasal mystery Anubis yang entah apa berkaitan dengan Egypt. Lepas tengok terus download semua episode dekat Pirate Bay yaww.

Sekali tengok, dah teraddict sebab hero-hero kacak, heroin-heroin lawa. Jealous kan? Plot pun menarik. oke oke, so back pasal twitter tuh. I actually tweeted one of the cast from the Anubis House. auwww. Ok ok so beranikan diri la ni nak tweet Ana Mulvoy-Ten yang pegang watak Amber Millington dalam cerita tuh. So kebetulan masa tu, dia tengah online. auww.

sesiapa yang tak kenal, ini Ana Mulvoy-Ten.

Gila kalut nak tweet dia. AND EVENTUALLY I DID. finger crossed, tunggu reply, kalau ada. Diorang kan artis, confirm busy, peminat berjuta enam, selalu dapat fan mail dari seluruh dunia, takkan nak reply semua kan? Sabo je lah.


Tunggu punya tunggu, '2 new tweets'. Oke tarik nafis, hembus, tarik nafas lagi. Tekan butang tuh, OMG TERKEJUT SIOT HAPPY TAK TERKATA ! Rasa macam nak lompat lompat jer. Rasa nak menangis jer. Rasa nak beli hadiah kasi kat dia jer.



I feel so fly like a G6. HAHA.


Ehem, ehem tengok gambar kat bawah ni yer, dan sila lah berjealous. Auww.


And now, i'm officially a fan of Ana Mulvoy-Ten.
Really really look up to her now. Sayang dia, tapi lagi sayangkan Jay Park dan awak.


pi es : tetiba teringat dekat kawan yang gila exited bila Imran Ajmain reply tweet dia. Tahniah la kamu. Jom kita lompat lompat ! :)

My JPA interview experience.

Alert : This is going to be a long post.

Kalau dulu-dulu, selalu jer baca pengalaman pelajar lepasan sekolah lain kena interview. Baca kat blog, dekat laman pendidikan semua tu. Dalam hati, wah, nak jugak go through benda-benda macam ni dalam hidup. Macam best jer kan.


So the other day, masa 8 April 2011. Gementar giler bukak page JPA, nk check sama ada aku ni kena shortlisted untuk interview atau tidak. So i applied for perubatan PILN. Nak sangat buat medic, but the question is do i have what i takes to become a doctor ? insyaAllah.


Alhamdulillah shortlisted. Bahagia macam on cloud nine. Masa tu jugak jawab soalan online. Giler banyak punya soalan. Ada dua bahagian, A dan B. Bahagian A tuh dalam lebih kurang 245 soalan, then bahagian B dalam lebih kurang 290 soalan. Aha, giler banyak kan ?


So interview bertarikh 12 April 2011, bertempat Hospital Universiti Sains Malaysia, pukul 8.50 pagi. So kat sini nak cerita lah pengalaman pertama kali kena interview. WAHH WAHH WAHH.


Masa sampai sana, terus jer daftar, dekat kampus USM. Masa tu dah ramai orang, okay jumpa kawan sekolah lama. Rindu la. So lepas daftar, orang JPA tu ada cakap, dik tunggu dulu yer sebab sekarang ni interview untuk interviewee pukul 8. So im like takper, datang awal, tengok keadaan semua, buat hilang tension nervous.


Pejam celik pejam celik, dah pukul 8.45. Aku di tempatkan dalam Panel 2, bersama 4 lagi calon lain. So kiranya dalam satu panel tu ada 5 orang lah (3 Medicine, 1 Dentistry, 1 Pharmacy). So masuk jer bilik tuh, fuhhhh sejuk la weii. Ada 3 interviewer. Then diorang perkenalkan diri. Kalau tak silap, yang kat tengah tu doktor, yang sorang tu pensyarah Uitm, dan yang sorang lagi tuh entah dah lupa. hik3. Tiga-tiga interviewer tu lelaki.

Panel 2 ni kumpulan biru, warna favourite tuh. auww cun kan? Yang paling cun, dah la panel 2, dapat pulak no 2. aii aiii kenapa la no awal-awal. Yang ni tak lehh blahh la sebab kalau no akhir, at least buleh jugak nk curi satu dua idea interviewee lain kan? HAHA.


So firstly tu self introduction dalam bahasa mat salleh. Yang ni okay la sebab memang dah practise kat rumah. Tapi english-english ni memang lemah la. So kat sini nak summarise soalan yang interviewer tuh tanya.

1) What course did you choose and why ?
2) Patriotism in foreign countries.
3) Kerajaan atau swasta ?
4) Kenapa nak pergi oversea dan tak nak further dalam Malaysia ?
5) Why should JPA send you ?
6) Kenapa ramai yang dah habis belajar tapi tak nak balik ?
7) Studying oversea is longer compare to Malaysia, your opinion ?


I think that was all. The questions weren't 100% asked like that, but from my perspective, that's how i see it, so i answered them according to how i understand it. Thank God we didn't have any current issue questions. Or else i'm just gonna sit there with my mouth open as i wait for the interview to end.

my rate : 6/10.

I know i could have done a million times better. It was all impromptu. None of us knew what the questions were gonna be like, so my advice to all the interviewee, just be moderate, be mature (even if you're not, just act mature for the sake of your future), smile throughout the interview and don't be afraid to voice out your opinions in anything.


to be continued...

Hari special tak baik menyumpah.

Dah macam berabad tak update apa-apa kat blog ni kan? sekarang macam dah busy la. Sibuk buat ini sibuk buat itu, tu tak termasuk kemalasan yang berleluasa lagi.


Tapi hari ni nekad nak update blog, sebab hari ni hari special aku. yeep, kau dah lapas belas yer Rinee. Takper dah tak underage, kalau nak kahwin pun dah legal. sukaaaa nyaaaa.

Okay okay, nak cakap pasal youtube sebenarnya. Korang-korang pernah yer teringin sangat nak tengok satu video ni dalam youtube, tak kisah la video apa sekalipun, then search punya search WAHH DAH TERJUMPA ! excited punya lah top, then cepat-cepat tutup tab tab yang lain. Yer ah sebab tak nak bagi loading lambat ke haper.


Dengan penuh semangat kan, korang aper lagi, tekan link video tuh. Masa ni tengah senyum la, sampai ke telinga then tunggu punya tunggu, keluar la benda hitam ni.

eh ehh menyampah nyer uploader ni.


haha, tak ke rasa nak bunuh orang ? eh giler punya uploader buat tak available pulak kat negara aku. Masa ni memang senyuman ayu manis tu hilang terus. Rasa nak kutuk-kutuk jer uploader ni. Apa yang special sangat sampai kena buat private segala ni? Kau tahu menyampah? HAHA.


Memang eii eiii eii kalau lah hari ni bukan hari istimewa sedunia, aku dah lama menyumpah sakan minah/mamat nie. Haha tapi tak, aku baik. heeee serious, tak tipu. haha. okay sabo rinee sabo. Kiter bako jer dia.


p/s : tahun ni sambut birthday sorang-sorang. pakwe takleh balik, kena buat show dekat US. Dia kan penyanyi. of course, hebat kan? HAHA. okay, ps ni tipu.

I'm 18 and I'm a mother

Yes, it's true. Infact, i'm a mother of two babies. I know, it's so cool.

My dad actually bought me these two babies during chinese new year so it's like chinese new year present or something. And no worries it's not illegal, because the government actually allow you to do something like this, o yeah, well at least here in my country.


Babes and dudes sekalian jangan salah faham, ni bukan kes jualan bayi, no it's not homosapien. My dad wouldn't do something like that. Haha ni mesti dah terpedaya kan? Actually the babies i was referring to was hedgehog. Korang kenal Sonic the hedgehog? Yer haiwan comel tu la, mini landak. Sangat cute dan sangat comel.


Papa beli dua ekor. So cepat-cepat nak kasi nama la kan, my kawan ada suggested nama Kibod, yang ni panjang cerita, jadi sangat lah malas nak tulis kat sini. I thought of naming the other one Queen but my brother insisted of using the name Dazzle instead of Queen. And so being a good sister like i always am, i agreed to his demand (since it wasn't really a suggestion). Bwahaha.

So ini Kibod. This was when my dad first bought him, which was a while ago. Yeah, i know he looks really aggressive in this picture. And the quills are kinda sharp. Pada awalnya memang dia sangat takutkan rinee, aku muka macam penjahat ke? Jangan la takut baby baby.

Haaa, yang ni gambar latest. Took this picture after giving him a warm bath. Cute kan? Makin comel sekarang maybe sebab feed mealworms so jadi chubby sikit. Takper, tuan dia pun bukan kurus sangat. HAHAHA. Nanti kita diet together yer baby. I tried rotating this picture, but it just didn't work out. Sorry.


Gambar baby yang satu lagi, Dazzle, cannot be uploaded sebab dia macam cute on the outside but aggressive in the inside so bila nk picture-picture jer terus lari. Macam dia kenal jer camera, waaaaa baby bajet artis eh? Ok lah, kalau macam tu mummy jadi mamarazzi.


Yupe that's it. My babies.
I love you Kibod Dazzle.