My future is not miles away, it's in front of me

Can someone tell me what my future will be like? Because right now i have no clue what i'm doing. I feel like as if i'm breaking down slowly, real slow. I don't know what i wanna do. Everything seems so hard to me. My parents are telling me to take medicine course and of course to be in that course you need to have super gila terbaik excellent grades so that i can go and study in Poland, together with my sister. You see, that's the problem. I don't know if i can do it or not. I wanna go there, yeah, i mean who doesn't right? But anyway, i don't wanna think about this for now. It's tiring my mind.