Driving test, Ujian memandu.

Hari ni hari yang paling 'nerve-wrecking moment' untuk pemegang-pemegang lesen L, okay maybe bukan untuk semua tapi yang pasti untuk aku. Nervous yang tak berkesudahan. Tapi semalam tidur okay jer. Takde pulak gangguan ke apa.


Test jpj. Penting kan? Mana tak nya, kalau lulus jer dah boleh nak racing-racing dengan minah rempit kat luar sana. Kalau takder lesen mana boleh, kena arrest kat polis la nanti, illegal driving and racing. Okay itu bukan topiknya. Tadi test jpj sepatutnya dalam pukul 10.30 tapi delay-delay macam flight airasia ke aper, tgk-tgk dah kul 11++.


Dapat no 20. Number ni bitter sweet. Satu part lulus, satu lagi gagal. Bitter sweet kan?

Aku tak lulus part driving kat atas jalan raya tu. Dapat 13/20 jer. Komen dalam paper tuh fuhh panjang giler. Tapi jpj aku tak de la macam dalam gambar kat atas ni. Dia xde la nak marah ke apa, dia just duduk diam from starting sampai la habis. Sunyi sepi, macam romantik pulak kan? Kalau ada sinaran bulan, wow perfect.


Auww aku tahu kenapa tak lulus, sebab dia nak date dgn aku lagi la tu. Okay tipu, gedik sangat. Dia tulis dalam paper tu, aku buat kesalahan mandatori (sp). Okay bila aku buat? Tak ingat pun.


Nasib baik yang litar punya lulus. Kalau tak memang aku @bfafb&$&basdc ! HAHA.

Aku fail kali ni. Tak per, bukan nya aku akan suicide pun sebab gagal. Aku just duduk sorang-sorang mengenang nasib, mengira bilangan titisan mata gitu jer. Dah fail kali ni, hopefully nanti second time aku lulus la pulak. Hopefully.


InsyaAllah.

pictures are credited to google.

You're still beautiful, okay sweet.

semalam syok-syok lepak kat youtube, terjumpa la satu video ni.

habis tengok jer, terus tunjuk kat mama. apa lagi, mama pun dengan sempoi segalanya join tengok.


habis video tu, mama terus komen. negative feedback pulak tu. katanya mama buat apa cari laki yang macam ni, dia nak kat perempuan tu sebab dia cantik jer. kalau nak cari laki tue, cari la yang suka kat kita because of our inner beauty, bukan sebab luaran.


ehem mama, anak mama ni suruh tengok sebab nak tunjuk betapa sweetnya lelaki tu jer sebenarnya. Mesej video tu tak sampai kot. Sebab tu mama tak faham. Mana nak cari laki macam tu mama. You're still beautiful. Tak ke sweet tu? auwwww. terasa gedik sekejap.

okay ni sekadar gambar hiasan. macam la aku faham bahasa korea.

lepak-lepak lagi kat youtube, jumpa yang original punya. okay no wonder video kat atas tu cakap remake.


dua-dua pun sweeeeeeet.



sweet kan kan kan? jom guling-guling tengok video nie. hero yang ni handsome kan? gedik mood dah datang balik yawww. HAR HAR.


okay bye, off to piano class. nanti lewat kena marah kat papa. :'(


zhai jian

Life is one big road with lots of signs

In a certain point in our lives, whether it was the last few hours, yesterday, two days ago, last year and so on, we must have atleast once, or twice, felt like giving up, or even worse, felt like ending our lives.

gambar ni amat menakutkan, kan? sorry terpaksa guna.

Maybe you haven't, but i have. It's the moment where everything just seems so wrong. The moment where everything fail to impress you - you failed in everything you do continuously, being called names by other people, being teased, being judged, being ignored by your own friends, being bullied and the list just go on.


And in your mind, the only solution to end this problem once and for all is to just suicide. Once your dead, you don't have to worry about these problems anymore. You can just rest in peace, or at least that's what you think. But hey, remember this, God doesn't make mistakes.

He made you, and for surely it wasn't a mistake. You were destined to live, even everyone has a reason to live. When you're facing a problem, just compare that problem to bigger ones, and you will somehow see that life is a lot easier.


Screw people who bullied you, who called you names, who called you a bitch, fat, ugly or black. The only way to revenge, is to be better than them. Maybe not physically, but mentally. Be better than them in education. Show them who's the boss in the future. They are the perfect ones now, but beauty doesn't last forever.

Everyone has a reason to live, you just have to find it. And as for me, the reason i want to keep living is because i'm thankful to God for blessing me with a wonderful family who loves me just the way i am.

Sekeping gambar membawa seribu makna.

So don't give up in life. Giving up is for cowards. Smile and stand up with pride. We all have a meaning and function in this world, because God just doesn't make mistakes.


pictures are from tumblr and google, minus the last one.

sini sana, korean wave.

sedang menulis ini sambil mendengar lagu Ricky Martin - yes, i know dia memang tersangat hot. Who knows maybe tiba-tiba datang ilham atau idea untuk guna ayat-ayat yang agak sophisticated sikit kan?


Tadi, i was going through my folder dekat desktop computer ni. Then terjumpa satu gambar yang membawa sejuta satu maksud. Itu gambar masa zaman muda, takde lah muda sangat pun sebab gambar tu tahun 2009, sekarang kan dah 2011.

so this is the picture :

haha, buruk gila tulisan.

kenapa ambil gambar macam ni?


Okay so here's the story behind the picture. Back in 2009, the ex-leader of 2PM, Park Jaebeom or better known as Jay Park, telah menarik diri dari kumpulan yang agak hot tu. Kalau nak cerita kenapa dia tarik diri semua tu, fuhh, memang beyond my will la sebab cerita dia memang panjang, okay takde la sepanjang sinetron indonesia tu, tapi agak panjang jugak la.

And after Jay tarik diri, salah satu admin dari 2PM official international website keluarkan statement untuk buat video footage pasal peminat Jay from all over the world, you know, just to show our forever lasting love for him, and also to support him dalam semua keputusan yang dia buat. So ada peminat jay sorang ni from that site suruh saya buat jugak, since i'm also, kinda, his biggest fan. So saya buat la.


Rules and regulations nya amat lah mudah. Just ambil gambar message yang ingin di sampaikan kepada Jay beserta bendera negara anda, tourist destination di negara anda atau basically anything that can represent the country you are from. anda faham? mudah kan. Sebab tu ada gambar bendera Malaysia kat belakang tu. ehem bendera tu dulu saya pinjam dari kelas 4 Damai. Yer bendera Malaysia, bukan bendera Amerika.


So yeah, lepas siap, i just submitted the picture. Easy. And don't ask me about the video footage tu sebab ever since Jay keluar dari 2PM, and selepas saya submit jer gambar nie, saya jarang dah ke website tu. So i don't know if they actually include my picture in the video or not, but who cares, since i just did it for fun. weeeeee fun nyaaa.

okay, lagu Ricky Martin dah habis. Nampak tak tattoo Jay yang tulis JWALKERZ tu? well, in case korang tak tahu, Jwalkerz tu official name untuk peminat setia Jay. Jwalkerz seluruh dunia memang hebat!


Ini semua kenangan masa 2009. I still like Jay and i'm totally proud of it. May your career go no where but up.

Hello, pickup lines.

oh yeah, the cheesy corny pickup lines.

i was reading this fanfiction in soompi. yupe, it's a forum where it's mainly dedicated to all those die-hard kpop fans. but they also have some non-kpop related topics. okay promote promote. by the way, where was i? oh yeah the fan fiction.


was reading the fanfic made by a few soompiers, and i can't help but to notice the pickup lines they used in their fanfics, well not all but some of it. Not that i am against it or anything, it's just that sometimes, i wonder why girls fall for those cheesy corny pickup lines. I'm a girl, and i just don't understand it. Oh, i'm so confused.



"Your lips look so lonely. Would they like to meet mine?"

"Good thing i brought my library card, because i'm checking you out"

"You must be from Pearl Habour, because baby you're da bomb"

"You remind me of a magnet, because you sure are attracting me over here"


okay stop. four is enough. So you do get my point here, right? To be honest those are not exactly the pickup lines in the fanfics, because obviously i can't remember the exact words or something but still, you get my point right? Please say yes!


So i hope anyone is kindly enough to explain to me why a few, not all, girls like guys who use those cheesy pickup lines to flirt with them. I am just so confused. Guys can always be honest and just confess to the girl, i think i like you.


I know this is kinda lame. I am so confused and bored. At the same time. wowwww. and oh yeah, just so you know, my babies are getting bigger now. I think it's because i treat them mealworms. yummmmmy.


zhai jian

school and its uniform

i've been updating my blog quite often lately. woww, rinee, you must be really bored, aren't you? my gawd, i pity your boring life.


stop it right there. my life is not boring. or dull. i lead a wonderful life, well sometimes. I live my life, sorta, like a vampire lately, you know waking up when the sun is no longer on top of your head, sleeping when the roosters started to make the cock a doodle doo sound and so on. except, i don't sleep in coffins and i don't drink blood. yupe, fun it is.

anyway, all of those are out of topic. what i was trying to write here actually was that, i was going through my friendship folder, and i found a few pictures of me and my friends webcamming (there is such word, right?) in school uniform. i just thought of sharing it here.

i don't remember when we took this picture and why was i wearing the semenza shirt but oh well who cares, i still love this picture anyway. hmm though i still wonder was it 2009 or 2010. Man, i sure do have a short term memory.

this picture was taken using afifah's laptop web camera on the last day of school in 2009. The girl on the upper right, yeah the one wearing tudung with the sic's badge, yeah, she's from sms muar, johor. she's not from sic, don't get her wrong. peace.

and this picture, lastly, was taken in 2008 after the PMR examination. We all certainly did our best in the examination, didn't we? to be honest, i think 2008 was the best year for me so far.


and that's it. there are a lot more pictures in the friendship folder, but i just feel like sharing a few. the name of the folder, haha, friendship folder, sounds a little bit corny, isn't it? HAHA. yeah, i know i can be a little bit corny sometimes, thus explains the corny folder name. rawr.

everybody let's go ooooooouuuuu, i found this picture in a popular social web. the web shall be kept as a secret coughTUMBLRcough. heeee. it's a nice school uniform isn't it? this kinda uniform makes the students look more mature, neat and well, gorgeous? yeah i can't think of any word but beautiful isn't it?


i love it. and i'm out. peace.


zhai jian

Awesome day with awesome people

warning : i think somehow today's update is gonna be a lot longer than usual so feel free to click on the x button on the upper right of your screen if you don't feel like reading this awesome update. HAHA. just kidding. not awesome at all.

so exactly two days ago, i went to this Karnival Pengajian Tinggi which was held at KTC. It was hmm how do i describe it in two words? oh yeah SARDINE CAN. it was packed. school students were everywhere. i repeat everywhere. okay, i thought this carnival thingy was supposed to be for SPM and STPM leavers, or did i get the information wrong?



went to this carnival with Ina, Nadia, Afifah, Leen and Shafiq. yupe jump up and down in joy! bersorak riang macam gif 2NE1 tu. And we bumped into Mimi and Mira somewhere in the building. Honestly, i was sweating like gilaaa aircond tak berfungsi ke? Eh lupa, takder aircond kat tempat yang swasta punya tu. Dah la asyik duk bertepuh tangan dengan lelaki-lelaki kat sana. yawww. eh tak baik, berdosa. mengucap.


later that afternoon, we jalan-jalan kaki ker noodle station. omg panas, sweating, letih. wahh, what a perfect combination. HAR HAR. Dekat sini baru ambil gambar sebab yer lah takkan nak bergambar dalam KTC yang packed macam sardine can and fyi, i could barely breath in there. oh yeah.

yang kanan Shafiq, yang kiri Inani. Mereka takder hubungan apa-apa yer, so jangan pandai-pandai nak timbulkan scandal sebab gambar nie. Nanti boyfriend si Inani tu marah. Harr, kecoh satu negeri nanti youuu.


Yang kanan Rinee, yang kiri Nadia. Kitorang senyap jer. Sebab kitorang budak baik, tak buat bising dekat tempat awam. awww silakan puji beramai-ramai.


makan-makan borak-borak. cantikkan leen yang kanan dan afifah yang kiri? yer i know! aku sayang gila korang. mwahh kanan mwahh kiri. ini satu jer gambar original, yang lain semua kena assemble.


Lepas siap makan segala, me and Shafiq went back to KTC, oh yeah walking under the hot bright sun while exposing our innocent skins to uv rays. crahhhzeee. while the three went to mall in search for jobs. InsyaAllah dapat. THE END.


haha, bila tulis the end tu, rasa macam story book la pulak, ala-ala cinderalla gituee. okay, seriously aku sayang gila korang ! Thanks sebab lepak sama-sama. I love you people.




pi es : test jpj 28/2. lambat gilaa.
pi es : betul ker result spm bulan februari? Ya Allah.
pi es : atas inggeris, bawah melayu. hebat aku. eh it rhymes.
pi es : rinee dah pandai pakai gifs dalam post dia. majuu.
pi es : banyakk gila pi es. HAR HAR.


zhai jian.

Sorry x1000

Hari ni pagi-pagi dah rasa sedih, rasa nak nangis atas kesalahan sendiri. Idiotic betul la kau ni rinee. Berapa kali dah kau buat kesalahan sama ni? memang bagai mencurah air ke daun keladi betul la. berubah yer. sila berubah.


Pagi tadi, bangun jer terus nak hantar text dekat kawan. Nak tanya pasal program hari ni. Then tak boleh send. So try call pulak, celcom yang jawab. Dia cakap the credit dot dot dot. Aku pun terkejut siot la kan.


So cepat-cepat pergi bilik papa. Papa bukak laman web celcom, nak check bil handphone rinee. Sambil tu dia suruh isi UPU fasa 2 jugak tapi sayang, UPU tak boleh isi lagi. Ada internal error apa entah. so ignore bab itu.


Bukak jer web tu, check bil yang rinee guna this month. Terkejut papa. Dah sampai credit limit. Banyak gilaaa. Papa cakap, nih rinee mari tengok sdiri nie sbb tu xleh call doh sapa credit limit doh. Then kena marah. Kena ceramah.


Papa macam disappointed gila dengan rinee. Sorry papa.



So aku tengok screen computer tu, terkejut dengan bil telefon sendiri. Masa tu rasa nak nangis ada. yer ala-ala merlin dalam gif tu la. Sorry papa. Entah berapa kali kena cakap sorry kat papa sebab tak nak bagi papa kecewa ngan rinee.


Sorry sangat-sangat. Rinee janji, insyaAllah bil bulan depan kurang pada bil bulan nie. Sorry sebab hampakan papa.


pi es : sakit hati dgn adik. instead of bagi kata-kata semangat kan, dia cakap tu baru bil handphone, tunggu bil telefon rumah sampai pulak. OMG!


zhai jian

hari ini dalam sejarah

okay tipu. takde masa la nak buat buat sejarah nie. saya bukan orang famous amos. yumm.

i woke up quite late today. maybe sebab semalam tido lewat. so tadi pun bangun dalam tengah hari lebih-lebih jugak la. i was dizzy at first maybe sebab i overslept. forgot to turn on my alarm last night. gila sakit hati. seumur hidup tak pernah pun tido tak pasang alarm. walaupun kadang-kadang tak dgr pun alarm berbunyi kan, still nak pasang jugak. haha.


so woke up masa zohor tadi macam terpinga-pinga jer. dengan pening nya rasa macam okay where am i? tengok sekeliling macam eh ni bukan bilik aku. kat mana nie? aku kena culik ke?




okay tipu. tu sajer exaggerate nak suruh nampak interesting. HAHA. just bangun pagi and tengok jam jer. terkejut sebab bangun lewat jadi rasa agak pening.


this is all because i slept late last night, which caused me to oversleep. tapi takper la tak kisah pun. salah aku jugak sebab gedik nak tido lewat. kul empat pagi tau. tak pernah lagi tido selewat itu. masa spm pun tak tido lewat. bajet baik kan. budak baik kena tido awal. HAR HAR.


so then kawan text tanya pergi tak karnival jom masuk U apa entah, lupa dah. cakap kat dia, oh sorry tak tanya lagi my mum. serious tak tanya. dah la yang UPU fasa 2 pun tak isi lagi. aishh, hidup dah tak terurus nampaknya bila jadi penganggur nie. kena hire secretary satu untuk rinee. nak yang handsome kacak macam merlin eh. buleh tak papa?


tadi baru tanya mama pasal karnival tu and to my surprise, she said yes tanpa bertanya panjang. okay ni satu improvement! sebab selalu kalau nak keluar ke mana-mana dengan kawan-kawan kan mesti kena bersoal panjang, like seriously tak tipu langsung. so after mama cakap yes jer, i was like yeeeep. arigato mama.



yeah yeah buleh pergi karnival jom masuk U something something tu. heeee. macam excited yg terlebih pulak. buleh jumpa kawan-kawan penganggur yang lama tak jumpa. heeeee.

tumblr, luke and mirashi

The last few days of my life have been quite a boring page in my book. Even if i were to write a diary about my everyday life, it will surely be 'dear diary, hello. i had zero fun today. bye. xoxo.'


no seriously. nothing exciting happened to me for the last few days. i wasn't hoping for 'merlin or jay to actually knock on my door and ask me to be their bride' or 'a hot looking guy would kidnap me to London and force me to be his forever' kind of excitement. because that would be impossible and even if it's possible, i doubt my mum would let me marry at this age. but hey that's out of topic, so let's come back. HAHA.


okayy since i was bored for the past few days (how many times exactly have i been using the word for the past few days? haha) i decided to do some tumblr hunting. fyi, i don't have any tumblr account so i can't really reblog the pictures i like.


tumblr hunting, ohyeah. does it sounds weird? anyway, i found this awesome gif of luke pasqualino. like omg he's drooling hot. just incase you guys have no idea who he is, he's one of the main actors in Skins UK. yeah, a lot of people here in malaysia, obviously haven't seen the series before because it's not shown here. too many slangs, bad words and curses. so i watched it online in youtube. yeah babe, i'm a baaaaaad girl. haha.

see, what did i told you? hotness overload, isn't it? okay so when i first saw this gif, the first person that popped into my mind was mirashi. ohyeah she's my girl. she's a big fan of luke. all hail freddie... i mean luke pasqualino.


this is her. my mirashi. oh girl, hope you wouldn't mind i put a picture of you here. i'll inform you later about this. i promise. i heart you with all my heart. now that i give my luke to you, hopefully you'll stay away from my merlin. HAHA.


so yeah, she was also the one that kinda got me into tumblr thingy, though i don't have my own account, i still love tumblr because well, i found a lot of interesting pictures and gifs there that i would love to use it in my blog sooner or later. ohyeah.


zhai jian

stuff you need to know about me

Yeah, ummm no not really.

"Once you have been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random random, things, fact, habits, or goal about you at the end, choose people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged. If I tag you, its because I want to know more about you, your cooperation is highly appreciated."

okay so here's the thing, i was tagged by my fellow friend, Ina Hishamuddin, to do sort of a survey about myself and the problem is that i have to list 25 things about me, probably things about me that other people don't know. yeah right 25 is wayyy too many.


and since i'm quite a lazy person, i've decided to do only ten. yes yes, it's gonna be short, hopefully. so here goes everybody. buckle up and enjoy reading, please.


1. I am scared of cockroaches. I've been fearing this creepy creature ever since i was a little girl. they have wings, they fly, smell, and well you know how they look like. just plain creepy.

2. I used to have hamsters and rabbits as my pets, but they all died long time ago, which explains why i said i used to have, not i have.

3. I love the everything about merlin. i love colin morgan as merlin. aww isn't he adorable? in the land of myth and a time of magic, the destiny of a great kingdom rests on the shoulders of a young boy, his name merlin. yeeeeeeeeeep. gosh, he makes me melt.

4. I play the piano. okay here's a fact, just because i say i can play the piano, it doesn't mean that i can play the piano well and if you love your ears, don't hear anything played by me.

5. oh my we are halfway to ten. People call me either rinee or sha. those are the two common most used name called by people and friends. Truth to be told, i've always prefer people to call me rinee. i think rinee suits me better.

6. I love to speak and write in english. yeah i know, you're gonna laugh reading this. and i'm sure you guys probably are gonna be like how can you possibly love to speak and write in english when obviously you have broken english? YEAH HAHA GO ON AND LAUGH AT ME, ATLEAST I TRIED. wow whats with caps?

7. I used to have a crush on a guy for 4 years. insane, i know ! hmm, i wonder what kind of magic spell he used on me? jampi bomoh black magic ke apa? haha okay lame story, let's move on.

8. My weight is, oh wait this is a little bit too personal. My weight is my secret. HAHA.

9. I love United Kingdom of Great Britain, duhh UK for short - England, Wales, etc. I love british accent. Why wasn't i born there? okay rinee bersyukur dengan apa yang ada. Saya cinta Malaysia jugak.

10. finally the last one. I'm a girl, and i can't cook. There's nothing to be ashamed of because turn on the tv to channel AFC 703 in Astro, sit back and wow all the top chefs in the world are guys!

here is ina's post about this tag thingy

should i tag other friends? well to anyone who feels like doing it, ermm you know, do it. not gonna force or burden anyone to do this tag survey thingy. it took me 2 hours to think of only ten. HAHA.


zhai jian.